UNITED / DIVIDED.

It is several days past August 22. I have officially and permanently left the Pokémon RPC on Tumblr. I was contemplating doing a big fancy post, but given the amount of heart and thought I have put into the posts leading up to my leaving, I feel as though I have already said an adequate goodbye and no further ceremony or reflection is necessary. The only reason I will return to post stuff on my blogs is to post entries for Pokémon Contests, but other than that, my days of RPing in Pokémon Tumblr are done, and quite possibly, so are my days of RPing on Tumblr in general as well.

I have only this to say in parting: I hereby release all of my mains from any agreements to be mains with me, should they seek another main.

I release all members of the Uniman League from any obligations they may feel to have their Uniman verses be their main verses as well. 

I also want to say I will NOT be offended if my mutuals seek alternatives or even direct replacements for any IC interactions, relationships and/or plots lost because I barely/don’t RP.

I won’t be around for hopefully forever, so it would not be fair of me to impose main/exclusive restrictions on people any longer--or keep an exclusive copyright on the ideas that we all worked together to create. It also wouldn’t be fair of me to expect people to retain any sort of mainverse connection to my verse(s) when they should be allowed to move on as I leave Tumblr behind. It especially wouldn’t be fair of me to say “well there’s a 1% chance I do return so I’m going to make everybody wait for me to really leave.” If I ever return to Tumblr RP (God forbid), I will not expect mutuals to drop the main/exclusive relationships that have replaced mine or backstories rewritten to reflect the fact that our muse relationships are no longer mainverse.

If you want to keep up with me, you can find me at my updates blog. Thank you all for continuing to be on this journey with me. I hope our friendships last as long as I’ve spent RPing, and far beyond.

Copyright lawyers @ my original universe be like

Change is painful. Change is hard.

Quite obviously, I’m still going to go through with quitting Tumblr. My mind is made up on that one, and as for RP, if I do still do it, I won’t have much more than a few threads going at a time and will likely not do Pokémon Contests. But I’m still filled with a sense of melancholy at the thought that this thing that was central to my life for the past seven years might one day not be a part of it at all.

I know it’s for the best. Recently I have come to the realization that the Pokémon fandom is an increasingly hostile place--to the point that I’ve started to actively warn potential newcomers against joining. How do I know? I have had at least one all-night/multi-day panic attack per year since 2020. This year I had two all-night panic attacks JUST in March, literally back-to-back. This didn’t used to fucking happen, and it’s taken me this long to realize that no amount of passion for a fandom is worth the HORRIFIC treatment I have received. I left the Star Wars fandom due to all the drama that happened in it, and I have not looked back since. But that was an easier decision for me because I didn’t even spend a full year in SW. Now I have realized it’s time to do the same for the Pokémon fandom, but since I was much more attached to Pokémon than I was to Star Wars RP, I’m going through the bargaining stage of grief: what if I met only a few new people in the fandom every once in a while? What if I just really limited my threads? What if I came back many years later, after I’ve grown a thicker skin? Which are all valid options in the end, but at the same time I feel like they may also serve as excuses to drag me back to a place that’s been just awful for me.