SpaceDaddy🌠

That Spider-Man movie hit way too many spots for me.

I don’t know what it is about posting here that feels like I can get things off my chest. No one’s listening no one’s here to respond and that’s okay. I really don’t get why I come here when I really want to talk about things on my mind. I miss my cousin a lot. I wish he were still here I really do wish there was a time machine. I wish I would’ve seen you more I wish I could’ve smoked one last blunt with you. In my dream you were waiting for me to smoke a blunt with you but I had to finish with what I was doing at work and when I came to find you, you were gone. But you left a blunt there at the door. I don’t know how to get over things because I’ve been having to deal with something at all times in my life. I wish I could’ve had the same kind of mindset back then like I do now. Fuck we really do waste our fucking time with so much pointless bullshit. I’m reconnecting with my siblings finally and I can’t wait to see what else happens. It’s so hard to let the past go. It’s harder when you feel like you’re leaving someone in the past. It feels like your voice is fading out of my memories. But I’m fighting it and I can still hear your voice perfectly. I wish I could stop crying about it but it hits me randomly all the time. I’ll never forget you I promise 🤞🏽 and I’ll make your dreams come true through your family 💙😔 I’d give my own life to bring you back. But I hope you’re okay where ever you are.

I wish I could go back in time and give younger me a all the hugs and words he needed. You were always going through something 😔 I wish I could live up to the promises I made you 💔

Promise that you will sing about me

Why did I go through those old messages bro .-.

If you still have your family with you I really hope y’all enjoy and appreciate every god damn moment 💔

Broken hearted for a decade 💔

I think I’m just not mentally prepared for the life I’m trying to live rn

I was doing good for about a week or two and now I can’t fake it again 💔 I wish I had a way out of my own fucking head

It’s hard to live a better life when all you’ve know is a hard life. I’m trying my best I really am. But fuck man this shit be so fuckin hard.