teen princess

That sounds super fucking rough. *hug* wishing you lots of positivity and good money vibes~

Hey, if you ever want to vent to someone I can offer a listening ear and absolutely no judgement. I'm sorry you're going through this shit.

Shit's pretty fucked up and I guess I need a place to vent. I have some really amazing friends who have been incredible through this awful process but I don't want to overload them with my feelings 24/7. And it turns out an abrupt end to what I thought was a stable and happy relationship is fairly traumatic and takes a lot of working through feelings. Who would have guessed?

So here I am. Trying to become financially independent so that I can strike out on my own for the first time. I went straight from the help of my family to being in a relationship with someone who had a real job. I know I've lead a life of certain privilege never having to take care of myself financially 100% but it's scary as fuck that it's all going away. I have no one to fall back on.

My mom just offered to fly me back to her place for Christmas but that's honestly the last thing I want. She lives in the middle of nowhere. I don't know anyone out there because she moved when I was in college so I don't know anybody. It would be just she and I alone all the time in her stupid house. I don't even have a room there anymore. The Internet at her place is shit. I would absolutely lose my mind. AND I wouldn't be able to work.

It sucks that my mom (seemingly) doing something nice for me makes me want to cry because I really hate spending time with her. She's so negative and unpleasant. The whole time would be spent with her bitching about her life and how miserable she is. It wouldn't be a vacation. It would be a chore.

So that's my life right now. Single for the first time in a very long time. Trying to save up to move. No idea WHERE I want to live or even what I can afford. At least I have some time to figure it out but it's pretty scary.