Oh yeah and I also met this guy

okay so im going through a crisis because the past few years ive been like not really sure if im like straight but i wasnt really thinking about it that much but the past few months men have been more annoying then ever and i probably have a crush on a girl im going crazy because ive never felt those things ever like for a girl

my life is literally going by so fast and im wasting it because im scared of the future and i just keep on going back to all of my sadness and anger because I don’t want to face the reality I don’t want to get out of my room I don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything but I also desire a good real friendship and something that will keep me going and make me feel like im living my life not just a dream in my head

i keep telling myself that if id meet timothee chalamet i would stay calm, act mysterious and like i dont know him but deep down i know that i would freak the fuck out and start screaming and crying

i freaking hate when people look over my shoulder and stare into my phone. like back up that shit is private.

I think i've finally specified my type. I like middle ugly, goofy men😀

Im trying to learn candy necklace on the piano it’s so hard the fuck

I am so overstimulated at school it’s crazy

I actually don’t like him

I don’t know what to do anymore I can’t stop thinking about him I just want to hug him, cry my eyes out and stare at him for the rest of my life

sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down sitting on the sofa feeling super suicidal hate to say the word but baby hand on the Bible i do feel like its you the one who's bringing me down

I've decided that from now on I'm going to do things that make me uncomfortable and learn delayed gratification ill keep you updated