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I thought that this might be helpful to talk about.

When I was four years old, I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. What this meant was that I wasn’t going to be like other kids. I had to work harder on social skills, as well as try to overcome other common symptoms found in the spectrum like sensory issues and behaviours that may seem odd at first glance unless you understood why. On the other hand, being autistic meant that I was often fixated on selected topics that interested me, making me appear to be a bit of an expert in that field. This can come in handy for jobs where these skills and interests match very well and I’m motivated to bring out my best.

Now as an adult, things are more nuanced and complicated. While I can be social, I’m wary of large crowds and try to avoid them out of a fear of suffocation. I’m also becoming more sensitive to changes in the surrounding environments, and changing between high intensity tasks at work can be debilitating to a point where my brain and body are forced to “shut down” in a way as a result of the built-up anxiety. Unfortunately, the lack of understanding from some of the important figures around me doesn’t help that much either. If society wants to have autistic people like me be a part of it, then they should try to make an effort in understanding who we are and what our specific needs are for us to properly function and contribute effectively. Mind you, each autistic person’s different, so what needs one autistic person has will be different than another person on the spectrum, much in the same way that each person in the world learns differently and at their own pace. It’s up to everyone to work together in understanding each other’s life rhythms and reach a mutual point of understanding and respect.

Don't kill yourself until BNHA finally ends.

Don't kill yourself until you read all the fanfiction that you've been putting off reading.

Don't kill yourself until you see every piece of fanart for your OTP.

Don't kill yourself until you've eaten all the fruit you could ever want.

Don't kill yourself until you have enough money to buy those shoes or dresses or bracelets or books or whatever you've been eyeing since forever.

Don't kill yourself until you see that musical you've always wanted to see live.

Don't kill yourself until the day comes when you can see your friends and family again. Where you can hug them and tell them how grateful you are to have them in your life.

Don't kill yourself. I will keep giving you reasons to keep pushing through to the very end of this thing for as long as it takes. You are strong. You can make it through this. You are brave and I love you so much.