I want to go home

I'm trying to be good to myself lately. I don't want to suffer more than I need to.

It have been 11 months and 19 days since I loose her and I still miss her sometimes. Today more then usual. I need a hug.

I feel like an addict. I was ⭐ for three weeks cause I was stressed then had two normal weeks and now I just don't want to think about things and focus on not eating jest to relive myself. What's wrong with me?

Daily reminder your mom won’t love you more if you get sicker. I promise. Being skinny won’t solve your problems.

Stop pretending like it’s about loosing weight. If it was you would be in a healthy deficit not starving yourself. It’s about something else.

why am I so freaking hungry

How did I become afraid of food again? I just have tried to lost some weight. I made noodles (374 c in two portions). I already ate one and I feel horrible. Like my mind can't understand that konjac noodles are low c. Maybe I’m just tired. I’ve had amazing but busy weekend and I have a lot of stress at uni. I just don’t want to hate myself all over again.

What do you eat after the end of f@st to not gain it back?