put on your costume

middle school is when I realized I was only attracted to women [at the time], so I thought I was a cis lesbian

high school I thought maaaaybe that I might be attracted to men still, so then I secretly ID'd as cis bisexual, but I leaned towards women [high school was also when I started to question the gender thing].

college I quietly considered that maybe I was a trans man, but it never felt connected to the label. finally I realized I was outside the gender binary, so I came out as a nonbinary bisexual... on april first lol

when I dropped out of college is when I started to call myself a pansexual/aromantic agender person... the aromantic label was very incorrect tho because that was me trying to force myself to accept I'll die alone and loveless. also despite calling myself pansexual, I was NOT interested in dating men.

I eventually dropped the aromantic and pansexual identities after a couple years and went back to bisexual agender [just fit me better]. I also realized I could like men and it not make me a woman, so I started showing more interest in men again.

that stuck around for awhile, until now. I don't feel like the agender label fits what I got going on anymore. it always felt kinda off, but I stuck with it anyways. saying I'm agender always felt like it was a gender still to me, I mean it's got a flag and everything. now I feel the best way to describe myself is a genderless transmasculine bisexual.

I don't feel like being genderless inherently makes me transgender cuz there's no gender there to trans, but what DOES make me feel comfortable calling myself transgender is my medical transition and gender presentation shifting more to the masculine side [I've always been pretty butch but I wore womens clothing. now I mostly wear mens clothing].