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as blissful as it feels to be so dazed and weak from only consuming water, EDs are not as pretty and soft and “oh i only eat 500cals a day so my boyfriend can lift me up without straining!” as some people make them out to be. it’s hunched over my toilet for so long that i’m convinced my back has frozen in that spot, or doing sit ups in the bath because my girlfriend won’t know that i’m poorly again, or not being able to physically get downstairs because my body is so weak that just breathing is giving me heart palpitations. it’s being extra hairy. it’s dry lips that flake off. it’s constant pain. it’s mind fog. it’s irritability. it’s pushing everyone away so they can’t comment on anything food related.