Hipster and shit -

Where talking is electric, kisses are long, time stands still and the nights are long. Full of hope, full of light. Where meeting eachother felt so right.

Long deep conversations, witty banter, dates after dates...and then excuses for more.

Desire was expressed, shown and made sure. Words were not just words, they meant more.

Where chances were asked for but only to touch. Where letting go felt wrong and everything was a rush.

Looking away for a second and then looking back at the phone to find sweet words, of them telling you how much they love your toes. All kinds of silly back-and-forths from jokes to spilling of secrets, all kinds of big and small words of affirmation.

But not just words, actions too, they made what was said fully the truth.

Ah the beginning. It keeps leaving me. But, I'm determined to make everyday a new beginning.

I asked him why someone would then assume I'm bad? He said, I came here to love my people and they assumed I was bad. But what makes you good is how you love your people.

If you love your people, like I did...when they were all against me, when they were unkind to me or when they had no faith in me...then you are like me...and that makes you a good woman.

Philippians 4:7 NIV

How it can feel when the darkness is looking down at you, and you're aware you're capable of better, but you give in because you don't know what standing upto it feels like.