I was asked for my Snapchat today… dude I’m in my mid thirties

Crows are so chill

Talking to that guy who reached out to me was kind of saddening. Like I almost feel mean thinking it, but he gave me the link to the YouTube for his music and it was hard to see. Like I know a few people that have dreams of making it as an artist, some who already are. This is the first time someone’s shown me their work and I was completely speechless because it was that bad… crazy thing is this dude was quite successful in other ways. Like he has (had?) a good job (actually it’s a pretty great job, better than a lot of corporate jobs) but it seems like he’s leaving it for this passion he has. And he seems oblivious to the badness of the music he’s putting out. It’s just crazy idk if it’s purposeful delusion or he really does think it could be something. Thinking about this had me thinking about my own life and what I should be doing lol

I need to be flirted with badly

Sometimes I come off as uninterested because I don’t want to bother someone and I know that’s an irrational response but it’s almost automatic. It may be a subconscious measure to avoid rejection as well. This also stops me from being the person to reach out because I feel “pathetic”. I know it’s not fair to always rely on the other person to reach out to me

Sitting on a bench drinking coffee and I hear a worker at a nearby construction site say “c’mon Eric” in this irritated tone that is absolutely killing me rn

Anyone else seen Marina de Van’s Dans Ma Peau (In My Skin)? I watched it about a month ago and can’t stop thinking about that one dinner scene. It hit somewhere deep in me.