Sick And Tired Of Being Sick And Tired

i don’t know how to be happy by myself because i just hate myself so much

Please reread my previous reply.

joe always makes me feel so much better without even knowing like just seeing him or watching him do something really tiny and insignificant just makes me smile and the thought of him is so wonderful and he’s just lovely and i adore him and sometimes it’s more than enough to keep me going but sometimes it’s not because recently i just can’t get everything else out of my head like im no longer able to just think of him and be fine because when im feeling like that i can’t think of anything else even if i want to and im so so beyond scared of what im capable of just because i can’t control my own thoughts and I can’t convince myself out of a shit mood anymore no matter how many good things I have in my life, i don’t want him to keep feeling like it’s his fault or that he’s clearly not enough to stop these things from happening because when im feeling that way he’s the last thing on my mind, because in that moment everything good around me just goes away and i can’t find a single thing that’s right

it’s almost been a year and he’s still stuck by me and actually gotten rid of everything that i wrote about in this post like he genuinely makes me feel better and then keeps it that way and he’s just all i need, nothing can overcome how happy joe makes me, no matter what’s going on in my head it’s just replaced when im with joe by how in love with him i am and how he makes everything feel so much better

Do I still make you feel this way?