I Don’t Know What I’m Doing

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

Don’t know if I have any mutuals, but oh well

ladies ladies plase; i have no redeemable qualities

There's something very compelling about the fact that AZ is likely terrified of abandonment (going through such lengths for Floette partly because he was terrified of the idea of being alone), but he cannot bring himself to stay for others.... Unwilling to allow himself closeness, unwilling to be fully honest, always lingering a step behind everyone else in the hopes they will forget about him as soon as he's out of sight. When things are too difficult, he desperately wants to leave. Running away from his problems until he reaches a point where there is nowhere else for him to go....I think part of it is out of fear ("I will abandon you before you can abandon me")... but it's also genuinely hard for him to fathom or even just accept the fact that others want him around

he’s such a mood

still caring about internet friends you lost touch with years ago is so embarrassing. yeah i had a deam we met up irl recently. the last time we spoke was maybe 7-8 years ago. i still wear the laces we randomly decided was a sign of our friendship. i dont know what any of your socials are or if youre even active on any. sometimes i see someones art resemble yours and i wonder for hours. do you still go by that name you chose? whenever i see it i wonder if its you. we couldve passed each other in this vastness a thousand times and not have a clue.

we were lonely kids having fun together. do you remember?