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some messily-written headcanons:

okay, don’t @ me, but like. being at u.a. has really negatively affected tooru’s mental health. it’s not being at u.a. specifically, but all the shit that has gone on -- tooru’s just not ready to handle. she’s still just a kid, and she’s never had to fight or suffer like she does now and it devastates her to see her friends hurt. she knew being a hero was tough, but it wasn’t supposed to be like this -- not yet, at least. tooru just isn’t mature enough yet to handle trauma like she’s been exposed to, but i think anyone would be shaken by what the 1-a kids have gone through. tooru, though, has lived a completely normal and happy life, and honestly ?? she really misses it. it’s why all of her interactions are so shallow, because she doesn’t know how to process everything, so she finds solace in normalcy.

clearquirk asked: “If I do it at the last minute, then I’ll have a minute.”

@clearquirk  ||  [ school-related sentence starters ]

The words pulled his shoulders into a stoop, made him do a double take, eyes fixed on the spot across from him. Her face was unreadable, invisible, making her tone the only thing he had to determine whether or not she was joking. In the next moment, he was sitting upright, back against the cushion, stroking his jaw with a thumb and finger, unable to fix the look of disbelief frozen into his features.

                    “Mr. Aizawa told us to get a head start. If we’ve got any chance with this project then, we gotta… right?” A hum. The redhead let his hands fall back to his sides, eyebrow quirked as his own words repeated in his mind. He frowned at them, wondering why they sounded so defeatist, maybe the extra burden of the remedial classes had turned his hopes to fear. This wasn’t like him.

Cracking a smile he quickly added. “But, I mean, we’ve got another two weeks, so what’s the big rush? Breaks are important for boosting morale, y’know! How about we all watch a movie or order some take-out or both!”

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❛  well,  with  a  duo  as  great  as  us,  it’ll  only  take  a  minute  to  do,  i’m  sure  !!! ❜

perhaps  tooru  was  exaggerating  their  academic  prowess,  but  really,  how  bad  could  it  be ???  yes,  they  should  really  be  starting  now,  getting  ahead,  but  after  all  that’s  been  happening,  tooru  just  can’t  bring  herself  to  push  everything  away.  

tooru  was,  for  lack  of  a  better  term,  normal.  she  was  an  average  girl,  with  girlish,  naive  dreams  of  heroism  and  fame,  thrown  into  a  whirlwind  of  pain  and  panic  that  would  shatter  anyone’s  rose - colored  glasses.  and  just  when  she  thought  it  was  over,  it  was  never  over.  there  was  always  something,  someone,  ripping  apart  her  life,  her  sense  of  safety,  belonging,  into  shreds.  how  long  did  she  wait,  how  long  was  she  holding  her  breath,  waiting  for  her  friends  to  return  from  besting  horrors  she  could  never  begin  to  imagine ???  it  tore  tooru  apart  to  think  of  what  kirishima  had  been  through,  but  it  shattered  her  to  know  that  she  would  never  be  able  to  help,  not  the  way  they  all  needed  her  to  --  not  yet,  at  least.  but  there  was  one  thing  she  could  do,  to  ease  his  soul  and  her  own:  she  could,  even  if  just  for  a  few  moments,  give  him  the  return  to  normalcy  treasured,  craved  by  the  class  who’d  had  it  mercilessly  usurped  from  them.

so  for  today,  tooru  doesn’t  want  to  think  about  homework,  or  projects,  or  anything  they  were  told  to  do.  right  now,  she  wants  nothing  more  than  to  just  be  with  kirishima,  without  the  constant  threat  of  death  or  expulsion  looming  over  their  heads.  she  feels  warm  inside  when  she  sees  kirishima  cave  in  to  her  selfish  desires,  and  although  she  hadn’t  realized  she  had  been  tensing  them,  her  shoulders  relaxed  in  a  sigh  of  relief.

            “        A - Ah  ,    my hair  .   .   ?        ”        the question   certainly  did leave him   perplexed  ,    since it seemed   no   one   necessarily  was  very    interested    in the unruly hair that was his  .       it never was tamed—   never   could   be  .        but Toshinori didn’t   dwell   on  it  ,     simply   bringing   a  finger  to  a   bang   and   twirling   it   around the  digit  ,     sheepishly    grinning  .             “         I   don’t   do   anything   special  ,   really  .  .    i use   strawberry   shampoo   and   conditioner   though  .     it  smells  really nice  ,     sometimes i’ll use  vanilla  shampoo  .      w - why do you   ask   ?     ”

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tooru  could  berate  all  might  for  basing  his  hair  care  around  the  scent  of  his  shampoo,  but  didn’t  she  do  the  same  ???  although  sometimes  she  wished  it  weren’t  so,  the  sweet  honey &  milk  aroma  of  her  shampoo  would  do  much  more  for  her  repute  than  the  sheen  of  her  ebony locks.  after  all,  she  was  the  only  one  who  could  see  them,  although  it  could  be  hard  to  remember  that  as  she  stared  down  at  her  hands.

clearquirk 【 ★ 】’d for a starter !

        "you… want me to help you train? are you sure?“ his disbelief is clear on his face, brows high on his forehead, mouth open in a small ‘o’ as he blinks at hagakure.

just as he was about to suggest bakugou or kirishima as a better alternative, he thinks better of it. bakugou was a great fighter but wasn’t the most patient, and kirishima might have been busy. "i– yeah, i can help you.”

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❛ great !!! thanks, midoriya, this is a huge help. but -- you’ve really gotta stop being so down on yourself !!! ❜

she understood where his insecurity was coming from -- just months ago his quirk left him a danger to himself and others. but something had changed in midoriya, and now, he was leaving everyone in his dust. 

and where was tooru ??? where she’d always been: the back. and that just won’t do !!! so, she’s decided that whatever happened to midoriya, needs to happen to her, or she’ll get left behind.

@clearquirk // starter call.

“I could really go for some boba tea right about now.. Hey, you happen to know any good places near by I could get some?” She suddenly turns to whoever was next to her at the time and asks. She should really be studying right now. Not wanting to go buy boba tea. 

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the library is a great place to study, but only if you actually want to study. and if you’re hagakure tooru, you never want to study. still, she’s on the verge of failing her math class, so this girl next to her totally shouldn’t be asking her about boba !!! but, of course, it’s a hero’s job to help others out, so that’s gotta come first, right ???