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A POEM FOR SOMEONE WHO IS JUGGLING HER LIFE

This is a poem for someone who is juggling her life. Be still sometimes. Be still sometimes.

It needs repeating over and over to catch her attention over and over, as someone who is juggling her life finds it difficult to hear.

Be still sometimes. Be still sometimes. Let it all fall sometimes

The endless memories,

Of your face staring back at me,

In those most unmistakable moments,

As my name echoed from your lips,

Having to now bury them deep,

Forcing myself to erase them,

As it hurts too much to continue carrying this burden...

©️fallencalliope

Su calidez

Subyace en este camino yermo

Que como mi amor por ti

A sido abandonado

Que del amor al asco solo hay un paso

Y cual buitre corroe al odio

Al rasgar las entrañas del amor

Y ser consumido por el desagrado

Pues eh de redimir este sentir

y retorcer esta sensación

Para perecer en este fría tierra suelta

Que me sujeta amargamente

Susurra a voz baja que el albor del florecer llegará con el alba del perdón

Eh de renacer cual zombie a su piel

Su cabeza a sus hombros

Y su corazón perdidamente enamorado pero defraudado

I will be posting my poems, my diary entries (mostly about family trauma, bpd, c-ptsd, and living with chronic illnesses) and maybe even my short stories. I'm a yapper so sorry abt that.

short info about me:

name: you can call me L, which is my initial.

pronouns: she/her

mbti: infp-t

age: 19, soon to be 20

my interests: hiking, psychology, literature, writing, reading, books of dostoyevsky (I am a crime and punishment fan), hanging out in nature, neuroscience, child development, mountains & forests,

my major: I am currently studying psychology, but switching to child development soon

my disorders: BPD, C-PTSD, chronic migraines, vagus nerve dysfunction, VSS. I also have anxiety that comes with bpd.

other things abt me:

I'm a very motherly and nurturing person, and the mom friend! I'm also married 🤍. I'm learning real love and how to be a real family through my marriage because I had a dysfunctional family and never learnt what real nurturing love is.

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trigger warnings: I occasionally post about mental health, anxiety, chronic illnesses, writings & poems about mother's abuse (sexual abuse too), writings & poems about chronic illnesses, writings & poems about childhood traumas and how they shaped me.

byf: sometimes I will be posting & venting a lot. if you don't like posts about chronic illnesses/mental illnesses then this blog is not for you.