In ch43 why do you think akihito appear in front of kuroda when ha was about to leave ?? Mabey look at me what you can do ? And i love asami reaction he just tell aki to take warm bath šš i love your page š
Thank you! And what a great ask! I havenāt done an obsessive frame-by-frame breakdown for awhile and this is a great one. So letās do it! This is part of probably the most critical sequence in the entire story, starting with Akiās reluctant return to the penthouse, the angry miscommunications, the rough sex. This scene is the start of the emotional resolution for the arc of their relationship because itās Aki beginning to assert his place by Asamiās side.
Itās helpful to remember again how little time is passing in this story. Itās only been maybe a week or so since Kuroda cornered Aki and got all snotty about Aki performingĀ ānight duties.ā So Aki is carrying that memory into the scene along with Sudou having him beaten and warning him off of Asami, all of the countless reminders not that Asami is bad for him but that he is not worthy of Asami.Ā
So at the start of the chapter, where heās having his Scarlett OāHara moment, lolling in bed, well fucked and thinking heās happy in the moment and heāll worry about the negatives tomorrow, here comes one of those negative voices personified, invading this private space.Ā
If you isolate all of the Aki frames in this scene, you get a really beautiful progression of exactly what he was thinking that led him to step in front of Kuroda. And once again, for anyone who thinks sensei isnāt a thoughtful, intelligent writer and artist, theyāre not looking at what sheās putting right there on the page. So hereās Aki literally slowly waking up to some realizations:
Hearing voices, he gets out of bed and goes to see whatās up. He approaches a door, a literal but also figurative door, hesitantly, his hair over his eyes. This is all great, subtle symbolism. Whatās on the other side of that door? Does Aki really want to see?
And then he hears something that throws him backāthat literally opens his eyes and puts his back up against a wallāLITERALLY:
If Sudou is just Asamiās toy, then what is he, Aki? Didnāt Asami just play with him in bed, allowing him no choices of his own? He leans back, staring into the middle distance, while Kuroda suggests Asamiās senses are being dulled.Ā
And itās a neat little callback to earlier in the volume, that scene where Aki zoned out in the press room:
Where Aki worries if his senses are being dulled.Ā āThis is bad. When did I become like this?ā Both of them distracted by unexpected feelings. Then Aki is pulled back to the present by a present, the book Asami gives to Kuroda:
An expensive gift, given by one who knows the recipientās desires. There is warmth and caring and more feelings are stirred within Aki:
And then this whole page is a progression of Aki grappling with how he feels, witnessing this exchange of warmth between these two men.Ā
Notice that now his arms are crossed over his chest, a gesture of defensiveness, to the closeup of his eye, the brow drawn but gradually lifting as Aki works out how he fits into all of this, his face half in shadow and then his head tipped back, literally (again) looking up as he determines that Kuroda and Asami occupy a space above him.
And that brings us to that moment where Kuroda steps out into the hall and the little storm of Akiās emotions, everything that has been building and jumbling since they met in the park.Ā
Aki is still defensive, throwing back at Kuroda Kurodaās insinuations about his role in Asamiās life.Ā āI was about to make you some tea.ā Heās still defensive, arms still crossed, defiant expression. Heās obviously still stung by what Kuroda had said to him in the park, but heās also staking a claim to his position, as you say.Ā āI am here. I am part of Asamiās world. Your words havenāt moved me. Sudouās almost did, but still, I am here.ā
And then when Kuroda goes without challenging him again, thereās another quick progression of feeling.Ā
The defiance begins to deflate in the face of Kurodaās polite neutrality and shifts back to one of Akiās defining characteristics. He is open about other people. He is willing to reassess them. That closeup of his eyesāat once puzzled, a little melancholy but also betraying that tender humanismāconveys so much.
Then Asami appears and Aki is rocketed back to all of the feelings of the last chapter, where they were left after Asami drilled him into the mattress, everything still hanging in the air over him. His expression changes again and even in that small drawing, sensei emphasizes with dark lines over his eyes to show us how he still doesnāt know, still doesnāt understand his place in this manās world. Asami, too, is uncertain but heās better at masking it. Heās a master at it, in fact, so much so that it leaves Aki at this terrible disadvantage.Ā
But Asami still doesnāt understand why Aki ran. He didnāt get the answers he wanted in the last chapter. The conversation with Kuroda only antagonized him and now Aki is standing there, glaring at him and he doesnāt get it. Telling Aki to get a bath isāI think, anywayāa bit of an admission of defeat. Or a temporary retreat. Heās got Aki back but he doesnāt know what went wrong or what to do about it. So go get a bath.
And then Asami turns his back and it looks like theyāll go on with their communication problems unresolved but Aki just went through a little transformation, a little realization and has a better footing now and he stops Asami and makes that offer about getting information for him. Sensei poses the questionĀ āHis pride or the rivalry? What is it that drives Akihito?ā All of it! And all of it is part of the same question that will continue to drive him. Where is his place in this? What does he mean to Asami?
All of this emotional tension is diffused in the next chapter when they both unexpectedly get a little of the grace they so desperately need from each other when Asami realizes that Aki was JEALOUS of Sudou:
Asami laughs. He laughs! Thatās not just him having a chuckle at Akiās expense. Itās a classic release of tension. And Aki may be back to his usual in-your-face mouthy denial stuff, but hey! Akiās back to his usual in-your-face mouthy denial stuff, which means he feels like Aki again which means he feels more secure. Why? Because Asami caring that Aki was jealous means Asami cares because Akiās feelings are important to him. Aki needed to know that in the same way Asami needed to know he was jealous.
And that is the little emotional journey sensei took us on from bed to bath.
















