Talk Less™

AZRA TABASSUM (or @5000letters)

from My Heart is Full of Open Windows;

To be quite honest, I think I’m more afraid to express and feel. It’s much easier to consider everyone else’s emotions and feelings while leaving mine in the back burner. Possibly another reason why I tend to keep the energy in the rooms I’m in light and with laughters and another to why I don’t really particularly enjoy talking about how I feel about things.

Think I’ve gotten way too good at suppressing my emotions that when I do have a moment of feeling or when I do have a moment of expressing it, it’s so overwhelming no matter how amazing or how miserable it’s making me feel. Or I just hide how I feel as best that I can.

All of this boils down to me concluding that I’m afraid to feel, but deep down, I love romance. I love love. Yet, I can’t seem to allow myself to live it. Seems like a problem I haven’t quite solved quite yet. Obviously there’s other factors that led me to this point in my life. I guess I’ll just have to figure it out a step at a time.