i am the chosen one

i tear my glasses off when i think about you

you know better, babe / than to smile at me like that / you know better, babe / than to hold me just like that / i know who i am when i’m alone / i’m something else when i see you / you don’t understand, you should never know / how easy you are to need / don’t let me in with no intention to keep me / jesus christ, don’t be kind to me / honey, don’t feed me, i will come back / it can’t be unlearned / i’ve known the warmth of your doorways / through the cold i’ll find my way back to you / oh please, give me mercy no more / that’s a kindness you can’t afford / i warn you baby / each night, as sure as you were born / you’ll hear me howling outside your door / don’t you hear me howling, babe?

you know the distance never made a difference to me / i swam a lake of fire / i’d have walked across the floor of any sea / ignored the vastness between all that can be seen / and all that we believe / so i thought you were like an angel to me / funny how true colours shine in darkness and secrecy / if there were scarlet flags they washed out in the mind of me / where a blinding light shone on you every night / and either size of my sleep / where you were held frozen like an angel to me / it ain’t the being alone / it ain’t the empty home, baby / you know im good on my own / you know it’s more the being unknown / so much of the living, love, is the being unknown / you called me “angel” for the first time / my heart leapt from me / you smile now / i can see its pieces still stuck in your teeth / and what’s left of it, i listen to it tick / every tedious beat going unknown as any angel to me / do you know, i could break beneath the weight of the goodness, love / i still carry for you? / that id walk so far / just for the injury of finally knowing you / there some people who are better unknown

for all that was said / of where we’d end up on the far side of it / when the heart would cease / ours never knew peace / what good would it be on the far side of things? / it was too soon when that part of you was ripped away / a grip taking hold like a cancer that grows / each piece of your body that it takes / though i know my heart would break / id tell them “put me back in it” darling / i would do it again / if i could hold you for a minute / id go through it again / i would still be surprised / i could find you in any life / heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i

remember once i told you about