Chinkpig

Because you’ve realized that you don’t really have a cock. That pathetic little thing between your legs is NOT a cock. It’s an asian appendage, not deserving to be called a cock, dick, or penis. It has no purpose and is as worthless as clippings from your fingernails.  

So why would anyone, including yourself, want to touch that?

For a while I tried to stay plugged 24/7 before for extended wear but I eventually lost interest. At home, it was fine. But when you’re at work or out with friends it can get messy. It’s especially messy when you have to poop and you have to pull out your plug. It’s going to be dirty-that’s just the facts. Also replugging after pooping is equally annoying.

I watch a decent amount of porn- and being locked up, I watch a lot more of it lately and tend to stick around for the whole vid when I used to just use them as a means to an end, that end being jizz. In my more recent porn consumption, I’ve noticed a conscious change in my desires.

I used to search for a specific type of dom/sub relationship in porn usually as follows: an uncaring dom interested in only using the holes of a willing (or unwilling and immobilized) slutty sub. Don’t get me wrong, I still find that fantasy hot as fuck in porn. But as I continue to analyze my role as a sub, I find that this is not really a fantasy I want to become a reality.

When I did search for this kind of relationship, I usually found only one of two outcomes. Often I would end up meeting with someone who claimed to be one thing online, and was another thing in person- and I don’t mean physically. I would get many tough dudes who could talk smack about how they were going to punish my holes, make me scream, etc. etc. Then the time would come and they would be more awkward and apprehensive in person than me (and I’m VERY awkward). Worse yet, sometimes I would get exactly what I thought I wanted. They would be aggressive, and forceful, and a little mean- but eventually the lights come on and the sex would be over and that personality would no longer be attractive. It can actually become repulsive pretty quick. Those types usually take a lot longer to finish than me, too.

The biggest thing is extending my time locked in chastity. The final milestone is when I eventually commit to permanent chastity-but I’m in no rush and it’s still a long journey before I get there!

I’m also continuously training my pussy to take bigger toys and fists! I want to feel like silly putty in my future Master’s hands and that includes having an experienced hole for whatever he wants to do with it.