Last time I checked, I'm holding a cupcake, staring at my birthday candle, sitting alone at my vacant room, hangover and naked, I can still taste all what happened from booze and everything from last night, getting warmed from sunlight direct from my window. Hearing waves on the other side of the wall. And it all began from that morning. Everything is like a thunder from summer. It's like unexpected rain from sunset view. Months after months, unexpected things happened, new faces from daylight to nigh time, seeing myself crying from emergency room, late night overthinking, waking up smiling from joy, afternoon lunch a table for 2. Trying to end all negative thoughts while smoking cigarettes, wine drowning, made risky decisions, unprepared invite messages, weekend getaways, reading some rooms, drinking fights, bruises and scars, exchanging cards, sharing thoughts, words to spill, kinda lost into a different environment. I'm new at some situation or maybe I was there before, but the clocks tick differently. Confused but creating memories, silence of screaming unsaid words, secrets to be told, kiss of tears or love. Fighting my own demons, prayers for healing in the bathroom. Highs and lows just like the waves. Minutes looking myself in front of my mirror. Filling myself up from the lyrics I can relate with or finding pieces of words that match certain comings from different online articles. Reassurance, forgiving, affirmations, giving and receiving. Went heaven and hell, aiming to stay where my thoughts are at restful state. Turning pages each month. From tears of joy and tears of sadness turns into never cried and never laughed this so hard. Above all of these 2022 has to end, 2023 is a year to handle everything well, no more stir of emotions, I manifest to receive only good things in every possible way. Genuine happiness, contentment, peace of mind, to loved and to be genuinely and unconditionally loved. My 2023 only rotates into: Getting everything I want and afford anything I need. I will receive and get only the Best. A better NEW beginnings π₯β¨To Best version of light life and β€οΈ (at 2022) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmxWJH8ysuR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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