it's crazy but it's mine

i just want to say na ang mahal ng gamot no? i was buying my meds kanina and i was like, what the fuck? and i couldn’t help but whine about it, but then after a while, i had to remind myself na i’m still grateful kasi i have the money to buy it, ewan ko but ganito ko talaga iregulate sarili ko lately— bale parang sandwich method hahahahaha reklamo, tapos biglang magiging grateful

nanahimik ako tapos today i played pickleball with my friends and they were not a beginner anymore since they had more experience than me playing pero parang it’s going to be so frequent na parang almost every other week we have a play scheduled, and it was my first time to try it again today, the first time was two years ago and i guess mas nakakaenjoy when you get it play it with your friends! hahaha ngayon dinedemonyo nila ako to buy a paddle — but parang gusto ko muna ng shoes sana??? siguro kailangan ko muna ‘to itulog di sya planned on my end hahahahaha

grabe naman inggit ko to those who were able to get tickets to ariana’s tour, seeing all the clips from the opening night is giving me pure fomo, and the fact that it’s eternal sunshine tour which is basically my anthem album since it was released??? and she even sang honeymoon avenue which is one of first songs that actually made me love her??? she’s been here in the ph twice, and i can still remember me and giezl going to sm bf to get a chance to buy a ticket don sa honeymoon tour nya kahit ba gen ad lang kasi yun lang kaya ng naipon namin na allowance? but sadly during that time sold out na sya, kaya wala kami nabili hahahaha tapos we end up going to quezon city to watch a liga of the boys we’re crushing in tapos late na ako nakauwi as in like madaling araw na kaya my parents were so mad at me na nakasilent treatment sila sakin tapos the few days after nalaglag naman ako sa bus tapos nagka spinal problem hahahaha what the heck nakakatawa talaga now pero i just want to say na inggit ako sa ariana concert, hopefully she announces asia tour soon and i’m sure i’m gonna hella fight for that ticket

here’s my current hyperfixation lately: matcha, making sourdough toasts, and a strong fucking itch to start a new life

i knew it from my gut that this is what’s going to happen, and i was right, again :-)

i’ve been doing a lot of calls and meetings na ulit since the hiring starting rolling in again, and while i was at a call yesterday para akong nauubusan ng voice, and i had to remind myself to pace how i speak kasi nauubos talaga yung boses ko which is weird but then today, it’s the same and my throat starting to hurt and i realize na naulanan pala kami when were in elyu??? hay i just hope it doesn’t continue into hardcore coughs kasi kakagaling ko lang talaga sa sakit last month??? pls lang ayoko na 😷

someone just messaged me in tg just now saying “hi, i miss you” and im like who are you? thinking he might have messaged the wrong person, and he said na it’s me he really wanted to message so i’m like, “who are you?” tapos sabi ba naman, “you really don’t remember me?” eh bakit should i remember you ba??? then he was butthurt saying, “ouch” then deleted the whole chat after??? like dude, stop messaging me and thinking i’d remember you??? ano kaya yun di man lang nagpakilala ng maayos hahaha gulo nyo ha

minsan natatawa ako kay lou pag sinasabihan nya akong “uwi na ha!” every time we meet na para bang binabalaan pa ako kung saan ako pupunta hahahahahaha naalala ko na naman that one time in pampanga i met up with someone and nagulat ako paguwi ko like dahan dahan pa nga ako not to wake anyone up kasi kala ko tulog na sila ni gin, gulat ako kasi si lou di pa hahahaha andon sya sa sala na para bang nanay ko non na inaabangan ako if ano oras ako uwi hahahahaha we usually joke around na di sya makatulog nang di ako katabi hahahaha

i’ve been having a hard time sleeping for days already, i swear i keep on tossing and turning, idk why??? that’s why i decided to take some sleeping pill that my brother had that was prescripted to him before and it fucking worked last night, i mean i still woke up early than the usual but atleast it wasn’t as bad like before na i felt na nakaclose na eyes ko yet i really can’t fall asleep or if i do i’d end up waking after an hour or two, it’s just so bad because it’s making me cranky 😩

gusto ko lang naman makipagdate tapos di natuloy kasi nagsungit na naman ako hahahahahahahaha gusto ko lang mag dress up and mag get ready pls (di pala makipagdate talaga) i’ll just date myself nalang nga 😆