S. is trying her best

good time for her to drop her new album.

I wonder if he listens to this and thinks of me... thinks of how i made the worse decision ever from his perspective but how he's grateful that he won't be wasting his energy on someone who could just move on so easy from him and his contributions to a new guy.

Or does he maybe realize why i had to come to such conclusions. About the times he made me feel sorrow and pain but keep ignoring it just in hopes he would finally kee his word and change for the better for me.. for us. How i know i shouldnt have just hopped onto the next person, but I was just a teenager looking for love that i thought i thought was enough for me to be deserving while he was grown man i looked up to more as a guardian rather than a lover in all honesty.