Isnt This Just Fun..

I'll never be enough for you or anyone else will I...

Heart feels crushed. I've been betrayed yet again.. Why can I not leave this situation? Its just like last time...

Might be spending new years sleeping in the car that someone is loaning me...

Forever longing to feel like I'm home...

Old habits die hard...

"there's a light at the end of the tunnel"... Yeah the train that will hit me...

When your cat is the only one to come and try to cheer you up you finally realise how much no one cares

When every inch of you is telling you they'd be better off without you. That you are worthless and disgusting and that you'll never be good enough. It builds up till you physically feel it eating you alive and is hurts so much. You just want them to stop so bad but they won't

Why do I keep screwing up my own life? I wish I didn't fucking exist

Shaking my head when I get those intrusive thoughts like an etch-a-sketch

I don't even feel like trying anymore..

Honestly I feel like I'm drowning

I'll always be the one left out in my family. The one no one talks to. I'm alone. I will never be one of them. I can't mourn a brother that I can't remember, that I didn't even get the chance to know. They had that chance. I never did. And for that I'll never be one of them. Rest in peace

You ask me to tell you what's wrong. But then you shout at me because of what I say. I can never win

My ex used to tell me to go sleep with other people. My boyfriend just told me to fuck off and go with another guy because I said his name one too many times. He's our friend but I can't say his name without being told to go off with him. I'm the bad guy here... "Are you happy with yourself?" he said... I caused this...