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Anyone who tells you have a purpose in life is wrong. You don't. None of us. That is a belief sold to you, so that you spend your entire life searching for some nonexistent purpose and beating yourself up when you don't find it.
You don't come to this life with a purpose, you make a purpose. When you come, your life is essentially meaningless but you give it meaning. You chose what your life means and you can change that as much as you like, whenever you like.
And isn't that even more beautiful? Isn't that more beautiful than having some stupid destined purpose that you didn't even get to choose for yourself but must keep chasing your entire life. Is it not more beautiful that you decide for yourself what that meaning is, that it is up to you to decide the things and people that give your life meaning, it is up to you if you want to do something extraordinary in your life or if you're fine with a quiet one. Both are equally as valid, as long as they make you happy.
It's enough to just exist, to just be. You are enough just by existing. No one should tell you otherwise, you don't need to prove your existence, you don't need to have a purpose. It's enough to just exist, to just be. It's enough to just be alive and standing, you don't need to do anything extraordinary to prove that.
It is enough to just exist and it is up to you and you solely to give your life the meaning and purpose you want it to have. That's what being alive means.
Tl;Dr: Life doesn't really have a purpose, you don't have anything to prove. It is enough to just be alive and you give your life meaning, not anyone else.
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Fandom: a Good Girl's Guide to Murder
Chapter: 1/6
Overall TWs: canon typical violence (other TWs tagged by chapter)
Spoilers for As Good as Dead
Summary:
'Can you find him before the clock runs out?'
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She only stopped running when she realized she was about to step on something that had been dropped in the street. She bent down and picked up a set of headphones with an AGGGTM sticker on the side. The headphones were scrapped and there was a small bit of blood on the inside.
Pip didn’t even realize that she had fallen to her knees, couldn’t feel the way the asphalt dug in and cut her skin through her jeans. All she could process was an endless stream of 'he’s gone,' running through her head.
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OR: what is Ravi was taken by the DT killer in AGAD instead of Pip?
I PHYSICALLY CAN NOT WAIT TILL SEASON 3 SO I CAN MAKE AN EDIT OF THE “DARK LITTLE SEAD” SCENE IN EPISODE 6 BECAUSE THE PARALLEL TO AGAD LIKE HELLO IM LOSING IT
a good girl's guide to murder book series *spoilers*: stop saying that pip was ooc!
i don't understand the people that say that pip's actions in AGAD 'don't make sense' and 'is out of character'. i ALWAYS see people say 'the pip in the first book would never!'
and well. that's the point? we literally watch pip's morality and sense of justice change throughout the series.
in the first book, she has a black-and-white sense of justice. she ends the first book slowly coming to terms with the fact that good people can be pushed into doing horrible things.
and then in book 2, we see her becoming disillusioned with the police and the justice system. jamie wasn't being prioritized as a missing person despite his life being in danger, and the police was too focused on a missing little girl (which was understandable at the time), but come to find out, it was just a domestic dispute. the little girl wasn't in actual danger at all and the police invested their time and resources into THAT and not into a case that could've saved someone's life.
the police continues to get shit wrong and goes with the easier narrative instead of the truth.
then max hastings isn't found guilty.
so in pip's eyes, the truth doesn't matter in the face of the law. the truth doesn't mobilize the police to do their job to protect the people that need it. the truth doesn't actually put criminals behind bars. the truth does nothing as long as the justice system can create an easier narrative (ie, it was the boyfriend that killed the missing girl; the missing little girl must have been kidnapped by someone bad and is in danger; this nice, privileged boy that used to have cancer can't be a rapist),
and the cherry on top, pip witnesses a man die in a messy situation in which there was no clear bad guy and good guy.
so not only does pip have PTSD--now her sense of good and bad is fucked up. she learns that you have to get your own justice because the police won't do it for you. they won't even believe you, no matter how many times you've been the one to bring the truth to them on a silver platter.
i mean COME ON, she was being stalked and harrassed and the cops still didn't believe she was in danger despite getting kidnapped.
of COURSE pip is different in book 3. going through all the shit she's gone through (someone tried to kill her TWICE, she saw a man DIE) coupled with witnessing the constant failure of the law to protect or serve, NO SHIT she's different. no shit she's angry. no shit she's 'always in a bad mood'. no shit she's cynical and distrustful and prickly. no shit she took matters into her own hands.
Connor Reynolds is the reason the whole AGGGTM trilogy happens.
So I just recently bought KillJoy and The Reappearance of Rachel Price with every bit of excitement and dread to read them. it took me 3 days (reading like a chapter or 3 a day) to finish KillJoy. Through that I realised something that hurt my soul.
!! Spoilers below for KillJoy, AGGGTM, GGBB, and AGAD !!
I'm gonna start off with a statement. I love Connor, he's great, love him to pieces and I can't wait to see Jude play a more main role in season 2. That being said, he is the cause of the entire trilogy. Hear me out.
KillJoy is the prequel to the trilogy, it happens like a month or two before the events it seems as Pip is yet to choose her EPQ project topic.
The story in that book is really sweet and I hope after we get season 3, we get this book in like a mini movie or a mini thing because it would just be fun for the actors I think.
This story is Connor's birthday, he chooses the have a 1920s murder mystery themed party where everyone dresses up and plays the part in a clue style who done it. Pip is Celia Bourne, Zach is Ralph Remy, Ant is Bobby Remy, Lauren is Lizzie Remy, Cara is cook Dora Key and Connor is butler Humphrey Todd. Spooky shit happens, Pip at first isn't interested but gets so invested by the end, everyone is sus and having fun. By the end of it, we find out the killer was Ant, Bobby Remy after Pip went on a whole spiel about the murder being premeditated and planned by the person killed, how the police man was in on it and how Ralph was the killer... she's salty and seething.
On the way home from that party, Pip is in Elliot's car with Zach and Cara, driving home when Elliot slams the breaks after seeing someone but playing it off and keeps driving. Pip sees who it was though, it was Ravi but Elliot must have thought it was Sal for a second. The last line of the book is 'i think I know what i'm going to do my project on', which we know is the Andie Bell case. Seeing Ravi that day after a murder mystery where Ant kept joking about Sal being the killer, sparked Pip's interest on the case - possibly for the first time since she was a kid - and sent her into the rabbit hole that becomes her life. Without that party, she might not have thought of doing the Andie case.
That's just Connor being the start, my boy furthers her torture later too!
Obviously Connor is there for the first book, supporting and being a good friend, book two comes around tho... and he's still being a good friend, Connor has done no wrong.
Book two. Good Girl, Bad Blood. The book where Pip's trauma gets turned to 100. The whole plot is Connor asking for Pip's help finding his older brother, Jamie, who went missing one day without notice. This one simple ask leads down the rabbit hole of Layla mead, Luke Eaton, their English teacher Adam Clark and Stanley Forbes. Through that she also found the Child Brunswick case and all normalcy Pip thought she had went down the drain. She found out Stanley was Child Brunswick, that her new neighbour was related to a victim of Stanley's father, that Jamie had sent money and planned to murder for Layla and got kidnapped by Stanley to keep them both safe.
Pip did a lot for this case and all she got at the end? A guy she grew to care about dying in her arms in a burning building, getting covered in his blood and dragging him from the flames. Pip lost all semblance normalcy from watching a guy die from 6 bullets to the chest (this scene will break me in the show... I am interested in how they deal with Stella being used as a catfish for this... they casted a black women and I really hope they photo shop her braids or whatever to be badly done blonde and that's it... it'd be funny, and canon)
All of that caused by Connor worrying for his brother and asking Pip and her podcast to help find him.
Those events lead into Jason hearing how much of a genius detective Pip is and targeting her, bringing back his DT killer days for his 6th victim. Stick figures, 'Dead girl walking' (if they don't use even a cover or something of the heathers song I will be mad), the headless pigeons, the spam calls. Pip thinks that the way to get past the trauma she has is - not to go to therapy and get professional help - to get on drugs and try to solve her own possible murder before it happens...
Clearly Pip is great with decision making... the traumatised fuck decides to try and hunt for her own stalker as if it will help her and ends up being kidnapped and almost killed! Then she becomes a murderer by choice - she ran away and came back there for it was no longer technically self defence... maybe? - and roped her boyfriend into microwaving a dead body to keep herself from being a suspect!
After literally murdering a man - for good reason - goes home and sets up a bleach bath for everything, then to Luke for drugs then to her friends places, gets Jamie Connor and Nat to help her, drugging and stealing from max, and then to McDonalds with Cara and Naomi to get a fuckin alibi! She then sets up the scene of the supposed murder max committed with Ravi's help.
And then after all of this, she thinks the smartest idea is to leave! To leave Little Kilton and ghost everyone! If only the police were actually useful in this town and Pip went to therapy after Stanley died.
I still fully want a scene, at the end of a season 3 if and when we get it, of Pip returning to Little Kilton after the case ends and the text from Ravi. Pip used to not being noticed, going around and looking for where her friends lived and knocking on their doors, saying hi and hugging and being able to be with those she loves again. then just like the end of Season 1, Ravi and Pip kiss and its super cute!
That being said... All that shit happened because Connor hosted a 1920s murder themed party for his birthday and Pip got interested in the Andie case... Connor is best boy but he is the catalyst for everything bad in Pips life, she'd never blame him though, not ever because she cares for her friend too much.
R.I.P Stanley Forbes | June 7th 1988 - May 4th 2018 | You were Better
R.I.H Jason Bell | IDGAF - Somewhere in 2019 probs | You deserved it bitch
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you know that song from epic thats like "I will fall in love with you over and over again, I don't care how where or when, no matter how long its been you're mind, don't tell me you're not the same person, you're always my husband and I've been waiting"
The day people actually start using Zain for Ravi edits is the day world peace will be achieved. How can you use Emma for Pip but then use some Pinterest model for Ravi? There's plenty of pictures of Zain now. No excuses anymore.
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While she may not be as underrated in her own series as Cassie Hobbes is in The Naturals, Pip still gets a lot of hate that can be easily debunked.
The treatment of Pip by the general fandom is shocking. While many praise her (me included), there is a minority who'll make her out to be the true villain of the series, despite that not being Holly's intentions at all.
They'll say that Pip wasn't justified in killing Jason, even though the circumstances in which she killed him in were understandable. He'd, stalked kidnapped, and intended to kill her, all because she wasn't "listening" to him. She knew he wouldn't let her live if she'd escaped.
They'll say that Pip should've just confessed after killing Jason instead of covering up his murder with Ravi and pinning it on Max, but fail to mention how Pip had no faith in the police after they continuously failed her throughout the first two books.
To her, killing the man who'd intended on killing her was a better option than going to the police, who'd most likely not believe her. Jason Bell was a privileged man who'd gotten away with it before, and I don't think Pip reporting him would have done anything.
We also hear how Pip was a terrible person for breaking up with Ravi, while not understanding her perspective on the matter. Yes, it's upsetting seeing them breakup, especially after everything they'd been through, but it was understandable. Pip knew that Hawkins suspected her for killing Jason, despite there being no evidence against her. She knew that, until Max was proven guilty, then it was better to remain distant instead of being close.
I understand that this could've made her look guiltier in Hawkins's eyes, but her distancing herself would've kept those around her safe. She practically saw herself as a ticking timebomb to those around her, so she thought it was better to be far from everyone else instead of being close and putting them in harm's way.
People will also say that Pip was a terrible person for not turning in Naomi when she'd discovered the photo that Sal had taken on the night of Andie's disappearance, but fail to realise her motivation for not turning her in was primarily for Cara's sake. She didn't want for Cara to lose her sister since she'd already lost her mother. And she'd also explained that the photo may not have been enough evidence for the police to reconsider opening Andie's case. The police had always been against Sal, and Pip knew that a photo may not be enough to prove to them that Sal was innocent.
And I've said this in a previous post, but book 3 Pip was not the character assassination that some of you believe. While the Pip we see in AGAD is noticeably different from AGGGTM Pip, the circumstances in how she became like how she was in AGAD are understandable. She'd been failed by the police, witnessed a man be murdered right in front of her eyes, had been betrayed by her friends + her neighbour, had become addicted to drugs, and was now being stalked.
To say that despite everything she'd experienced (at such a young age, mind you) should've just been ignored in favour of her being her old self again is the actual character assassination. No person can go through all of that and just be expected to act as how they were before. Pip learns that there will be nothing that she does that will bring her back to her old self; she's been changed by what she's experienced and will have to learn to live with it. I commend Holly for showing how trauma changes you and how you learn to cope with it.
Overall, Pip is not the villain that most people make her out to be. She's a traumatised teenage girl who shouldn't have been failed by those around her.
If you want to blame anyone for Pip's downfall, then blame the police for not believing her. It's not a teenager's fault that you can't do your job! If you need a teenager to do your job for you, then maybe you're the problem.
Love you, Pippa Fitz-Amobi <333
(Also, I might make this a series where I defend hated female characters. Any suggestions? My fandom list is in my intro <333)
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