Hello! My name is Halie Sorrow (Pronounced Hay Lee), my pronouns are it / she, I'm 33 years old, I'm a Pansexual leaning lesbian, but very demi with it, and this post is about who I am! While I'm here, if you're a terf, go away <3 If you're a minor you're on thin ice. Just know not everything I post is appropriate for you.
Feel free to flirt with me if you like, but don't expect much! I'm a chronic fumblr and let's be honest, I seize up like a doe in headlights if people are flirty.
I am very much a writer type (My works are below the cut!), and most of my interests and skills relate to that.
That said, feel free to send prompts of any kind into my box, especially for stories of some kind. The weirder and more genderfucky, the better. Asking for some smut is also fine <3
These're my gender graphs. I would love to consolidate them all into one graph, but IDK what program that would be or what that would even begin to look like considering how many variables there are, so, ya know, I did my best. These are not gender graphs that are a "one size fits all", they are mine. If you feel like associating with them feel free, but if you want to know why [Insert gender thing for you] isn't on here, it's because I have no opinion on it, don't know it exists, or don't think it applies to me! I associate with demons a lot (as the graph says) but the type of demon I am is the Acedia Demon, or Noonday Demon. Aka, the demon of depression. Basically, I murdered the host of this body and replaced him. Now I’m making it my own body. I strongly feel like I’m not the original host, but I have access to those memories.
Now for a little bit more about me. CW: my BDSM test, A master list to my different writing projects, some selfies (SFW only), and maybe a few other things.
Be careful, you're looking at my soul.
First one is the new one!
Second one is the old one
that fucking switch awakening, WHEW, goddamn.
"It's funny, a year ago that "Dominant" was at 7%, and switch was sub 20%. Sadist was also at a sub 20%, and voyeur was... sub 40% I think? I've gone through some things, most of which is from one off dates. I want to be clear, though, I'm not a dom! I'm not a top! These things have not changed. My understanding of them has grown a little bit, and my switchiness is debatable. It takes *very* rare moods and people to activate it, and I will tell you now, you being more of a bottom isn't it."
Still mostly true statements, past me. You were so smart. And also a dumbass lmao. STILL NOT A TOP BTW. I've gone from 97% certain to 100%. It ain't happening. :)
Next up, the major projects!
Growing the Hive - Chapter 1 - ChaosMagius - Eclipse Phase [Archive of Our Own]
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Layla is a transgirl space scavenger mechanic, an anarchist from Mars where Hypercorps run everything, and she's just hit a minor jackpot; an empty cargo ship filled with material that can not only earn her a lot of credits, but also reputation. There's just one problem; there's no pilot, there's no destination, and there's nothing to indicate what really happened.
Set in Eclipse Phase (A Transhumanist Sci-fi TTRPG), Hive's Story is a horror, about the scariest parts of being early in transition; not knowing who you are, or who you'll become, and how people abandon you. It's still a work in progress, naturally.
Necromechtic - Chapter 1 - ChaosMagius - Original Work [Archive of Our Own]
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A necromancer witch kills a mech pilot and steals their mech, before raising them to Pilot it for her, since she does not know how to do so. The two of them attempt to save the Witch's girlfriend, A Mech Artificer, who is going to be executed by the Empire for the Witch's crimes of necromancy. The POV character is The Pilot, who has lost most of it's memories, and is completely subservient to The Witch, but has enough personality to wish it weren't.
Be sure to read the content warnings; they're going to be pretty important.
Next up, some minor projects! Some have been dropped, some are still being worked on.
Major Project - Hellsworn Charm
Prologue “Do you always do this?” “Do what?” “Pretend you know everything?” “… You think I pretend that I know everything?” “You always hav
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Charm used to be human... before she died, anyways. She's wound up in another world, and she feels different, but it's difficult to say how exactly! She doesn't remember NOT being a Hellsworn, even in her old life, but there weren't exactly Hellsworn there. She's lost, confused, and worse, she seems to be hated by anyone who isn't a hellsworn as well, and now she's being forced into the slums outside the city! Slums that are roiling with deceit, and love, and a fomenting rebellion that major players in the slums are trying to prevent. But she's not the only one who's been isekai'd; John's still trying to run the rat race; he figures he can start small, just be a mason, try to live a quiet life. He didn't think he was interested in a loud life... but something is wrong. He was doing that in his last life... and died for it! He's alone, surrounded by people who tolerate and use him, but he doesn't know what to think anymore.
Hellsworn Charm is a story about a girl on an upwards trajectory from the bottom and finding a ceiling of oppression, and about a man who is on a downwards trajectory from... well, not the top. Both struggle with their lack of purpose, but where one gets a support network, the other does not, and the two's trajectories are on a collision path. The story is more world-building than plot, and once i realized I didn't really have one, it sputtered out. I won't be moving it to AO3, though. I'm not too proud of this particular work.
Kiani Teshu
I don't know how many people have ever even heard of this game. It's something my best friend and I used to play around with, back before th
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This post goes into what what it is, as well as explains where it's from ^.^
A Light Touch of Cold Steel (6016 words) by ChaosMagius Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Warhammer 40.000: Darktide (Video Game) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Hadron Omega-7-7/Veteran Characters: Original Female Veteran, Original Female Psyker, Hadron Omega-7-7, Original Nonbinary Fanatic, Original Ogryn Additional Tags: Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Injury, Gore, Nurgle Plague, WH40K Inquisition BS, Robot/Human Relationships, Trans Female Character, Planet Cadia (Warhammer 40.000), Adeptus Mechanicus (Warhammer 40.000), Masturbation Summary: A team of four varlets attempt a dangerous mission of assassination of a plague cultist officer of nurgle. Things go wrong, and Ashley, our Veteran and POV character, takes a little extra heat for it from Hadron.
A small hit of smut at the end of some violence :)
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A trans woman takes a train and sneaks into first class so she can eat for the first time in a little while. Unfortunately, the train conductor has different plans for her.
Now for selfies at the end, because if you got this far, you've been real good for me <3 Here's your reward <3
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Actually yeah to all the people who hate on pillow princesses for being selfish take a step back and ask yourself why you think topping is "work." You can just be a bottom if you don't wanna top. Like you sound jealous of pillow princesses. Also grow up.
The thing about Ralsei currently using They/Them is that like... y'all realize them switching from he/him to they/them is already their egg cracking, right? You realize they're basically already trans at this point, even if not said aloud, right? You realize people who use they/them are (usually) trans regardless of whether those pronouns are a "stepping stone" for binary ones, right? Right??
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i dont think whites understand how being white makes literally everything easier.
it effects everything.
being trans is easier when youre white.
being gay is easier when youre white.
being disabled is easier when youre white.
being a woman is easier when youre white.
being autistic is easier when youre white.
oppression is eased when you are white, as you get extra privileges, and your whiteness is seen as a positive characteristic that in some ways counter-balances your other forms of being a minority. whiteness controls everything.
you are automatically way more innocent in your own oppression as a gay, trans, disabled person because of your whiteness.
IT JUST MAKES ME REALLY MAD TO HAVE PEOPLE ASSUME THAT SINCE YOURE QUEER YOU HAVE TO BE WHITE. IT MAKES ME SO MAD THAT PEOPLE NEVER TRY TO EXPLORE HOW QUEERNESS CAN INTERSECT WITH RACE AND CULTURE AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS BECAUSE QUEERNESS IS SEEN AS JUST A WHITE THING. I AM NOT WHITE AND I WOULD NEVER LIKE TO BE AND I WANT THE OTHER QUEER PEOPLE I SEE TO BE LESS WHITE PLEASE
like it does matter. it does in fact matter. you can feel it when you're the only nonwhite person in a room and it is fucking weird. you can fucking feel in your body how uncomfortable and strange it is to only have white people in a space. it's deeply unsettling and deeply unenjoyable for everyone but the white people.
white people get the privilege of never having to think about how society will treat them for their race, white people get to always see people just like them. white people are always the default model in advertisements, the person on a book cover, the actor on tv. when you apply this to queer spaces you realize that fuck, okay, we only have models of what white queerness looks like. we only have a roomful of white queer people, we're not ever considering what it looks like to be black and trans, to be middle eastern and lesbian, to be south asian and gay, to be indigenous and intersex, to be hispanic and nonbinary. you're just white. and when you're white you don't even have to say that you are, when you're white you know you are the default and that most other people you meet in a queer space will probably be just like you. we have fucking nothing. we have a default, and even when we slightly stray from the default, we stay as close as possible to it. we only have white people because only white people exist, clearly
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i miss a lot of new leaf stuff too but like . you cannot be black in new leaf . i dont think this should be considered one bullet point in a list of pros and cons it should at least be underlined and circled like ' you cannot be black in new leaf ' is a major issue
Out of all the things I'm into, I think "people cumming" is honestly the funniest because of how basic it is. Like yeah I've got a fetish for enjoyable sex. My favorite thing to eat is tasty food. I really enjoy listening to good music. What are we even doing here where ami
I used to kinda laugh at the whole "Zuko's so dramatic, he did one good thing and passed the fuck out with a fever for several days" thing
But then i had an anxiety attack so bad that it actually made me feverish for a whole ass 24 hours and i'm like "damn, it really does happen just like that, huh?" Lmao
Hmm. My ceiling in my living room that I haven’t been in since Dashcon is collapsing and there is an alarming amount of mold. I believe something bad has occurred, I do not know what to do about this situation because it is not raccoon related.
side note, but i feel like this is a good example of how autism manifests in seemingly "low support needs" individuals. I can get a permit that is very hard to obtain, go to another country where nobody I work with speaks the language I do, hold myself together while I kneel beside a dead raccoon to try to determine cause of death, write reports for institutions to mitigate risk to raccoons, etc etc etc.
but then the moment something like this happens I freeze up and curl in a ball and have no idea what to do because I have no money or skill to fix it myself and i'm scared of the textures. And also literally cannot speak on the phone ever.
No, it's not inappropriate. It is a really common feeling for a lot of autistic people society deems as "low support needs."
There's a lot of frustration and shame in it, too, because of the way the world as a whole treats us. I think it is rooted in Aspie supremacy or whatever (internalized and external), but there is so much focus on the so called magical, wonderful abilities autism gives you (in my case, raccoons/costume design), that when you exhibit autistic traits more commonly associated with "high support needs" individuals, people automatically go "ummm I think you are faking/lazy/stupid/weaponizing incompetence/blah blah blah because I have seen you do [xyz thing that people find incredibly impressive], so you should easily be able to do [current thing]!" When that is not how autism works.
Additionally, I don't think most people realized that a lot of "low support needs" autistic folks aren't infact all that "low support needs," it's just that they don't have people able to meet those support needs, so they just struggle. And because nobody is there to see them struggle, then those struggles don't exist.
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