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I never really sought to kind of understand masculinity or even say anything about it. It's similar to Baby Reindeer and the kind of stalking elements or the trauma elements in that. I just really saw a kind of subject matter that I thought was innately gritty, complicated, and I just sought to sort of dive in there and try to get as much interesting sort of material and creativity out of it as possible. I think I went into it exploring, I suppose, masculinity, male violence, male repression, and I came out of it realising just how complicated it is. I don't think I landed on even what an example of masculinity is and nor was I really seeking that. I was more just exploring the difficulty of male connection. And in the end to try and give it some explanation, I think would have been to undermine just how complicated it is. A lot of television shows, they always wrap up in a neat little bow, where you know exactly what they mean, exactly what they want to say, exactly what the character needs. Then they get that thing and everything's okay. And to me, you know, masculinity is going through… it's under such a microscope. It's going through such conversation, such flux, such change, that I thought it would do a disservice to wrap it up into a neat little bow, or to say something that was commenting so clearly on it, what it is. This is what a man has to be. This is what a man should be. This is what the problem is with men. None of that really rung true to to me. The very nature of the theme is fundamentally sort of hard to grasp and that's what I wanted to explore in the show.

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In terms of the grunting, yeah, I wanted him to be primal, especially in the barn scenes. Like the the majority of the grunting kind of exists usually when he goes into a state of sort of… almost like he's almost tense with like something's going to go off at any moment. So, in the barn scenes, I wanted him to be the most devolved example of his humanity, which is like, he is broken now. He turns up, his beard's at the biggest, his hair is at the most menacing you know, and I wanted him to feel almost like a… almost like a dying bull at the end of the series, you know, and I really wanted him to walk around life like he existed outside of human beings. Like there was a physicality to him. He's not the most muscly guy in the world but there was a physicality to him, that was almost like suspended humanity. It was like, almost like a primal… He was almost like an animal in human clothing. And so I thought to give him a deep gruff voice that was kind of animalistic and to have him grunt like an animal.

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