03/02/16
In these past days Iβve been thinking of the the friends I lost along the way, some I decided no longer served me and let them go, but the ones that hurt the most are those friends I never expected to lose, those I thought Iβd be able to make memories with for the rest of forever. I learned that we out grow people, or rather that people grow in different directions, some not at all, and are no longer good for each other. I never imagined myself without those who built so many parts of me, some days the pain is great and Iβm left with the memories of those I love and lost flowing through my thoughts wishing our energies were still in a strong bond. Β Some days those memories hit me so strong I cant see anything but the past everywhere I look, today is one of those days (probably cause my period is around the corner). But most of the time when I think of those who Iβve lost, I remember everything they were to me in that moment, how they made me feel alive and young, how absolutely fucking beautiful and full of vibrant life they all were, and how in that moment of time they were exactly what I needed and I was for them too. When I reminisce, I remember the pure moments I shared with them and am grateful for the universe bringing us together at the perfect time, and also thank the universe for letting go of things that no longer serve me, even if I cant see it at the time. I am built of all those I have loved, they will forever be a part of me, I am endlessly growing.
