Kelly

I stayed up sewing

my bf called

every time I’m on call I get this feeling I should cry

I’m not sure why really

Is God real

Why doesn’t he help me

I don’t pray anymore

I’ve prayed so much I’m hoping it’ll come from that

I can’t breath or I can

my breath is labored though

I’m trying to explain how I’ve been meaning to kill myself this week

or at least for today

or at least for the last few hours

I’m crying n the tears come and come they’re not labored like other times

they’re unstoppable

I don’t think u heard me right

the internet connection doesn’t allow u to

i ate but now I’m extremely hungry

my heart feels weak

I brush everything off

I think I’m mentally ill

mosquitos are annoying

I wish they would die

u don’t know me like you think you do

Only I do

I wish you did

The internet connection doesn’t allow u to

Somebody calls on your door

you get so excited by this interaction

more excited than ever with me

maybe I’m exaggerating

but you’re smiling

It’s all I care about

𝙉𝙤𝙨𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙪 - 𝘙𝘰𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘌𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴 (2024) // 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝘿𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢 - 𝘍𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘻 𝘚𝘤𝘩𝘸𝘪𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘬 (1909)