A cesspool of sadness

Wisdom teeth out tomorrow let's fucking GOOOOO

Went from 0 to 100 prescriptions real fast. I've got antidepressants/anxiety, sleeping pills and birth control now.

wooooooah im going to be 19 in like a month. insane. spruced up my wishlist. 

i need things to watch. shows/movies/youtubes. i need new things to put in my eye balls. please help. 

next on my mom isnt capable of listening to a word that comes out of my mouth; a thrilling tale of me desperatly trying to help but getting ignored  

i am LIVING for my teams discord rn. we have a chat area specifically to share and talk porn and sex toys. i convinced my captain to get his first toy, and then two other people are buying toys, im buying toys, we’re all living, i love it. 

On this episode of therapy, Maggie is SO FUCKING DETERMINED!!!! AAAA!!! In other lighter news, stated watching Jane the virgin and I'm like 7 episodes in, and an unbelievable amount of things have already happened omg

everything on my steam wishlist is on sale : O but i have no virtual monies : (

i severly need a break

If anyone’s interested in spoiling me for christmas I’ve got an amazon wishlist...(some nsfw items included, if that ain’t your jam, don’t click.)

Therapy is so .... exhausting.

therapy appointments are so stressful for no reason, i get so anxious about it. anyway. mindfullness excersies are to be done. also getting a psychiatrist on top of my psychologist, so i can get some meds. yay? i guess?

I've got a fever, a migraine, I feel like I'm gonna vomit, I'm exhausted , why,,

First therapy session. Psychologist diagnosed me with major depression and generalized anxiety. I'm feeling very drained but also pleased about the session. Another one next week.

Okay I was trying to find a way to make my sudden mood swing into horrible depression fun and interesting but I've got nothing so you're stuck with this; I am sad. I'll never go anywhere in life. I suck at everything I do. I don't even want to do anything. My brain hurts. I am sad.