Happy Picture Time From Yours Truly

It’s time that I leave this place for good. Sort of. I’ll get to that specific detail later on in this post. But I’ve been vocal about how much I dislike the passive-aggressive, mudslinging social environment that this website encourages in the past, and I think I’m finally done trying to put up with it. I don’t share any sort of common ground with the way people seem to favor negotiating and interacting with each other on here; I could tell myself that some of that is probably due in part to many people on this website being teenagers, but I can’t pin the blame entirely on age or whatever. I’m tempted to, but I’m not going to stoop to making generalizations in the state that I’m in right now. Something that I desperately need in my life right now is optimism, and Tumblr seems to be doing nothing but fueling my naturally pessimistic outlook on life thanks to its extremely pessimistic userbase. I don’t want to become a part of that, I want to escape that and become a healthier human being. That’s my first reason.

More importantly, though, is that I’m not satisfied with what I’m doing with my life. I want be able to create, to entertain others while also entertaining myself, and this website is like a crutch which is preventing me from really devoting myself. I’ve always told myself that I want to get better, but instead I feel like I’m just hoping that this great artistic ability will just come to me in an instant. That mindset repulses me, and it makes me feel even worse than I usually do. And lately this feeling has just been building up inside me lately, eating at me, and I was unable to identify why I was feeling this way until recently. And by limiting the time I spend online I’m hopefully going to be removing any excuse that I have to not be improving upon, drawing, writing, editing, or anything else I want to improve upon.

In the end it’s really my fault for not taking the opportunity to leave when my mind told me that I should have done so months and months ago. Though at the same time, the main reason why I haven’t fully decided to quit until now is due to the people I talk to on here whose company manages to be really pleasant and welcoming. I felt like I had a lot of mutual respect with some of those people, and they’re really what has kept me on here for that long. I’m not usually the kind of person to let a few bad apples spoil the bunch, but I just can’t find any reason for staying here and reblogging mildly funny junk/random interests of mine that probably few others even care about that would be worth putting up with the garbage. I feel very similar about this as I do with my situation on Facebook and other social media sites that have just been getting more and more annoying to scroll through on a daily basis. And again, like this site, the close friends I have on there are the reason why I’m unable to just delete my profile and call it a day. Even more so with Facebook, because this is how I’m able to connect with old high school friends whom are all away at college doing their own thing, and otherwise I can’t really get a chance to catch up with any of them. That isn’t really the case here; most of these people are just online folks. I wish I could give some shout-outs to the people on here whom I appreciate and think really deserve a random pat on the back from me, but I’m not good at picking favorites and don’t want to single out anyone above others (since I’d probably end up forgetting anyway).

However, there may be some exceptions depending on what’s going on at the time. If there are certain events that come up which I want to partake in with a lot of others, like E3 or the Christmascast, I may come back for those. But as of now I think I’m going to call it quits as far as wasting time reblogging things goes. I could be doing more productive and, quite frankly, much more enjoyable things with my spare time than wasting time on this website, and I hope that shutting myself off from here will assist me with that. And if it doesn’t, and I find myself still trying to come back, I’ll probably just delete this blog altogether. But not right now. I’ll give it time to see if I really have to do that.

If anyone wants to reach me on Skype who hasn’t added me, my screenname is “cantflyman”. Keep in mind that I may not be extremely talkative 24/7 depending on what I’m up to, but don’t be afraid to talk to me.

Oh yeah, I should probably explain the “sort of” that I threw out in the beginning paragraph. Well, while I’m going to stop my trashy reblogging, that doesn’t mean I won’t utilize this website for actual creations of mine. I’d much rather be using Tumblr for the purpose of uploading creator content anyway, since that was supposed to be the point of this website in the first place. You can find that blog here:

shpollywood.tumblr.com

I’m also going to be shamelessly plugging my drawings from that blog through this blog, since it’s more popular and can hopefully get some stuff I have a little more exposure. That’s basically the most you’ll be seeing from me on this blog as far as content is concerned, so if looking at me trying to improve on miscellaneous art stuff doesn’t interest you, it would probably be for the best to just unfollow me.