RCD

I stay up and imagine, long and ache for a world, a reality I created in my head. Only wishing for it to be true.

Someone told me wishes don't come true no matter how hard you try

I'm pretty sure we forget the meaning of the word dream. Assuming that it is quite in fact the first definition and not the second one. To be clear I am talking about the first definition as I do actually have dreams, as in ambitions but I also have imaginary realities I create as a wishful human being. Those are not dreams as I was not asleep when those were created.......... This post is derailing further and further and I have no idea what I am doing.

Dream

/drēm/

noun

noun: dream; plural noun: dreams

1.

a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep.

"I had a recurrent dream about falling from great heights"

2.

a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal.

Hollow Victory

I wish to be someone other than myself sometimes

I ache and regret for who I could have been

And the worst thing is

I still can be someone

But

I don't know if I can find the strength to

That's me every damn second of my life.

Mental breakdown during history class is one way to do it

Also another thing is embarrassing is when you have a late assignment and you send an e-mail to your professor apologizing for your inadequacy and apparently you sound so stressed she offers to help you see a guidance counselor.

No I'm sure professor. I will be fine. I always am. I don't have a choice.

Yeah. They got out of range real quick

...... My friend stepped on a ketchup packet. Guess where the ketchup went. Ya. All over me and my perfect (not so perfect now) white dress shirt. Instant regret.