spicy linguist dancing in trees

i’m grieving right now. it’s pretty fresh, so leaving my home is always a little unreal. feeling “normalcy” is a bit painful now. losing someone that impacted your life tremendously that you used to see almost everyday for years.. just kinda.. shifts your whole world.. you know? maybe you don’t, and i hope you don’t, but i guess that’s just life. i feel lost in translation, but maybe i already was in that limbo and this just caused further entropic weathering into my life. like was i as grounded as i thought i was? did those lingering “what if’s” unleash these demons into a ravenous wormhole as soon as the proper reality (out of the many realities i’m aware of) i live in was stabbed with the sudden, physical death of a close friend..

day by day.