i feel empty without you

my world is lost at sea

taking me down to my knees

in a world of doubt

i crave death more than

scorpio

you make me breathe

a way i never have before

sensation i feel

so close

i feel exotic and relaxed

loved in the deepest way

carried to warmth like fire

i have betrayed my own for you

i will forever say it was worth it

if i could only see and feel

how you truely think and feel

a magic within you has me scared

i like it so much i’ll stay to find out

for you,

i dont know what i’d do

it could be more than anything

i’ve ever felt before

i’ll risk it

i’ll risk it all,

dive deep into water head first 

all the fall

i am down under my skin

i feel this could be

what makes me

if theres one thing you should know

theres a deeper insight to your perception

i am a universe of meaning

every thought that enter my mind

goes deeper

it’s all in my head

out of control

maybe it’s better this way

it drives me crazy

i hit rock bottom

i asked for it

and so i got it

every part

i can’t take my mind

off what i’ve done

now that i have no love

i’ve realized how insanely i’ve become a slave

to you

i would do anything for your love

once again i am myself

without missing pieces

divine purity taking me away

from all troubles

little do i know

i am setting myself up for something

tragic

this feeling makes me want to never stop

comforting, covering me like a warm blanket

id let it use me up till every bone has grinded to its core

you’d think the love would last forever

when i come down i will hate the world

but while i feel more powerful than ever

i will let it take my body like a prisoner

shaking and shaking i cant behold the fear i’ve let go of

i’ve opened up revealing who i am to myself

i’ve replayed my life judging anything in my path

forcing me to see my flaws and the best way to discard them

to finally feel this

all pleasure

captivating

no evil here

harmony has sailed into my mind and body

for once i feel whole and together

peacefully i have brought the devil

where everyone knows that feeling

there is something more

there has to be

we cannot let our daily lives

pass us through going on

well i’ve reached that point years ago

now i want to share what comes after

nothing

kiss my neck

call me your love

betray everything i have to offer

sleep with your ex girlfriend

yeah she’s a whore

you better get yourself checked

back faced against you

i know your hate my disapearance

you could buy all the roses in the world

beg me to marry you

promise a thousand wishes

in the end

you’ll still never deserve me

i don’t want you back

maybe someday all this will go away

but if i fall down alices hole it just might follow me

im going away from here

im digging a hole to hide my fears

the sooner i bury my trouble

the closer i am to running away

my doctor has me on these pills

first you feel nothing

i feel high

all i want to do is to talk to paper

so clever clear understanding

i want to breathe in all i have and

let it out

and have it disappear

i need a cigarette

i can’t tell time with you

i feel like star wars

glass cages all over me

i see double of everything

why can’t i be calm

i need another list

of things telling me what i need to

get done

i need a list

fuck i can’t think

i try so hard to concentrate

but you have my mind

it’s filled with thoughts around you

you’re in my nightmares too

subconsciously i think my mind is in love with your tricks

it’s hard to swallow your pill

it’s hard to not have control of myself

i can’t take myself in

the water was dirty but now it is clear

i am not lost no longer

i am no longer your toy

im moving forward without you

im going to dive into my new life

no longer can you tie me down

im off to a new start

something better than what you planned for me

i was unable to love myself

now im free

you smiled deep while you kissed my face

it meant something at the time

all i was thinking was

if i was going to take that chance

that maybe this time things will be different

i think it’s time to disappear

you override my regret

and it keeps setting me here

i think it’s time to disappear

it’s time to grow out

of the fear

it’s time to disappear

turns out it was just mirrors

i knew i was tumbling downhill

but i let myself fall steeper

i let the lies inflict pain

across my body

stumbling for answers

for some truth

but when i found it i could only think again and again in my head

the world is a dream, we are not real

the world is a dream, we are not real

the world is a dream, we are not real

the thoughts sank like a avalanche

i can’t handle reality

i can handle imagination

we all know i died inside

we all know

we watched it grow

within

beliefs became questions

and answers became emptiness

i lost myself down in my heart

i mislead it to hell