he's a virgo

the thing that gets me is how intensely private dean's grief is. dean purposely getting out of the impala and heading some place quiet and empty to pray. dean preparing cas' body for the funeral pyre, alone. dean going to a meadow to spread his ashes, alone. dean holed up in his room drinking listening to music trying his best to drown out the overwhelming pain of it all. we do not see sam grieve for cas in this way. it's not even remotely the same.

dean drunk carving castiel's full fucking name into his table he's batshit insane

everything in supernatural is under explored except nick who was over explored and should have stayed dead and i hate him

men are made to be shoved and grabbed and thrown around and pinned down. god told me that

dean caught between the living and the dead invisible to sam and john screaming at both of them to listen to him and to see him. dean telling mary mom i need you to look at me and really see me. dean meeting cas for the first time and being stripped bare by cas’ gaze. cas staring right into his soul, unflinching, and loving him anyway