probably okay

"I will serve."

It's the opposite and inverse of what Satan said, "non serviam," "I will not serve."

If I'm keeping the commandments I'm loving him.

If I'm reading the Bible and "not feeling it" well I'm still reading aren't I?

If my prayers are selfish, at least I'm making my requests known to God, I'm showing that I trust him enough to let him know, to expect help or comfort, etc.

If I'm singing along to worship music but not really paying attention - well, I decided that is what I'd play. I am singing it with my lips.

"RULE 5 SE 318 In time of desolation we should never make any change, but remain firm and constant in the resolution and decision which guided us the day before the desolation, or in the decision to which we adhered in the preceding consolation. For just as in consolation the good spirit guides and counsels us, so in desolation the evil spirit guides and counsels. Following his counsels we can never find the way to a right decision.

RULE 6 SE 319 Though in desolation we must never change our former resolutions, it will be very advantageous to intensify our activity against the desolation. We can insist more upon prayer, upon meditation, and on much examination of ourselves. We can make an effort in a suitable way to do some penance.

RULE 7 SE 320 When one is in desolation, he should be mindful that God has left him to his natural powers to resist the different agitations and temptations of the enemy in order to try him. He can resist with the help of God, which always remains, though he may not clearly perceive it. For though God has taken from him the abundance of fervor and overflowing love and the intensity of His favors, nevertheless, he has sufficient grace for eternal salvation.

I'm so nervous when I drive & my heart rate will shoot up just from practicing around the block. I'd love to get to a place where I can genuinely enjoy it 😭

hello yes ofc!! i totally understand how you feel, just the thought of maneuvering a car on the road was sooooo scary to me i just could never picture myself as a driver like that was not in my future :')

so the short boring answer is that you just have to keep doing it, the fear will never go away just by thinking about it!! you have to slowly conquer it by doing it again and again. even if it's bad and scary, it's one step you took to conquering your fear instead of languishing in inaction and letting it fester.

the long answer is that for someone who has a lot of anxiety (in general, but particularly for maneuvering a vehicle on the road with so many other vehicles around me) having someone next to me while i drove especially to new places, whether that was my mom or my sister, really really helped me. it took the fear away to just have someone with me. when i felt like i was rock solid with certain routes, eventually i felt like i could take the car alone, and honestly it was like a switch just flipped where i was like yeah i Want to be able to get better at this and do it on my own and conquer it (esp the scary parts like unprotected left turns). it was like a mental block for me, once i really realized all the benefits of being able to drive myself (not having to rely on someone else, freedom, peace and quiet) my brainfog suddenly cleared and 95% of the fear went away (this switch only flipped in the last few months btw.....i've had my license for 2.5 years). ofc i'm not an amazing driver or the most confident but that instinctive jolt of hesitation and fear is gone. i'm a firm believer if that you really want something, you will find a way to do it!! now i see driving to a new place as a puzzle to solve/conquer instead of this impossible nightmare.

The Flower and the Shadows No.4 - Clarence A. Porter

Canadian , b. 1960 -

50% of the kids couldn't find the many of the answers, even though they only had one chapter to read. the other 45% didnt know how to rewrite the answers in their own words. only 5% finished the assignment properly. they asked me repeatedly if they could ask chatgbt. almost all of their handwriting was on 1-4th grade levels. i struggled to read most of it.

-been lucky with teachers

-a home life where they're being taught properly

Now, every time I wake up about three am, knowing I have to get up at 6.45, instead of stressing and panicking about how my day is going to be sleep deprived and miserable, I just tell myself 'Time to activate Mythbusters Protocol' and lie there with my eyes closed safe in the knowledge that I am measurably reducing later feelings of exhaustion.

And when this happens, about 70% of the time the reduction of guilt and stress means I actually do fall back asleep, so all in all instead of getting only three or four hours sleep, I get five to six and a half.