You've said in the past that the Kindred are primarily dead, and that some would envy the Lost our intense and occasionally turbulent emotions. Do you feel only on an intellectual level, without the rush of warmth upon seeing an old friend, or do you feel physical effects of emotion as well? -Wadjet
Apologies for taking so long to answer this question, shadowling. It is a complex and difficult one.Insofar as the physical effects of emotion are purely psychosomatic, we are still able to feel them to some degree, since Kindred and kine psychology are not altogether different, much as many Kindred (and probably more than a few kine) would like to tell you otherwise. For the most part, however, what we feel is remnants of what we remember feeling in our breathing days. A friend meets their Final Death, for example, and I am sad intellectually because they were valuable and meaningful in some way. Only memories of the wild, irrational grief of mortals remain, and so I feel it a step removed. It is as though my mind, remembering my breathing days, tells me I should feel so, but it is difficult. Perhaps, to further the analogy, imagine the pain of losing a distant relative. There is pain, yes, and grief, but it feels removed. Perhaps, as hard as you try –because you think it right to do so– you cannot bring yourself to weep.However, as we grow older, we separate from what we once were, leaving our humanity, and the memories of what it brought, behind. For my part, it has been nearly a century since I was Embraced, and already my breathing days feel far behind me. For the most part, it is difficult to remember being mortal and feeling what they felt.In response to the first part of your question, however, there is an easy answer. Many members of Clan Daeva seek to reclaim on some level the emotional side of humanity. At best, this makes them empathetic and understanding, at worst it makes them capricious and cruel, bent on satisfying their own deviant tastes for the sake of relieving some of the crushing boredom they profess to feel. And trust me, shadowling, deviancy takes on a whole new meaning once you have been walking the earth for several centuries and have sampled everything this world has to offer.I hope my rambling has been in some way informative, shadowling.