esoteric

i might not ever be understood

this past month has been the biggest “focus on yourself” ever

i don’t want love anymore. i’ve seen enough

i can genuinely get over anything

i got broken up with like a week or two ago by the same guy who’s broken up with me like three (?) times before this and i’ve been extremely jaded since break up two and honestly i’m just really irritated because you absolutely could have just left me alone brother

nowhere is safe

i am once again experiencing a deep loneliness

i wanna die really bad

i hate people in my business so bad it’s literally nothing to know about me

my nervous system high key fucked up from when i was in that on again off again relationship at the ripe age of 22. i never wanted to break up with that boy not a single time and he would wake up on a tuesday like “i can’t take this” cause niggas was arguing and then beg for me back.

told my ma i miss him she said she ain’t gone tell me what to do but he an asshole

i think i will have to let you go again

i feel things for nahveyah graham that will probably kill me

i’m starting to value madison’s opinions less, it usually seems like opinions more than advice and honestly i don’t subscribe to some of the things she says anymore. she not any further in life than i am, she’s not where i want to be in life, she doesn’t have anything i want. she doesn’t listen sometimes either

i desire something that seems unattainable