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A MAN ON THE INTERNET SAID TO MIX BLEACH AND AMMONIA AND THEN USE A STRAW TO GENTLY BLOW BUBBLES INTO THE LIQUID WHAT CHOICE HAVE I BUT TO OBEY?

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at my lowest weight ~bmi 14 i wanted to kill myself so bad, i couldnt move i couldnt digest shit, i stopped talking to my friends and felt so horrible and sikc and depressed 24/7 it was one of the worst times of my life

i purged multiple times every day and spammed expensive energy drinks and protein bars, like 3 monster energies a day, messed up my heart rhythm a ton and gave me chest pains. i used to be junior varsity athlete but all my muscles atrophied until id get arm cramps from fucking lifting up a bottle, and had to quit team entirely. i stopped showering and brushing my teeth cuz i was too tired to and couldnt get more than 6 hours of sleep a night because i was too hungry to fall asleep.

i didnt think about anything else other than calories, my grades, and how much i hated myself and wanted to die, i had no life, not even just like i didnt go outside or talk to friends but i literally didnt have any hobbies or personal interests anymore and could physically think about nothing other than food and weight loss

hella excited

i gen need to lose more weight, lowering gw by another 5 lb at least

ive been so out of control these past few days its over

i had 100 (?) grams of a cucumber salad (idk mb 200 cals), 4 garlic crackers (150 cals), 1 banana (100 cals) and two coffee candies (35 cals)

i was meant to fast today...

2 bananas

1 pack of crackers, 150 cals for that pack

10 cals from monsterzero