Emaaa

I’m having some trouble. I thought after my eating disorder everything will be happy and fairy like. Well clearly, it did not end up like this because I am writing on here. school has been tough for me this year. like really tough. not the toughness I faced in year 9 where I would come back home crying EVERY SINGLE DAY. the kind of of toughness where I do not know how or where to find the help I had before. before I left my therapist place, they told me I have severe signs of social anxiety, despite this concern they decided to discharge me after having gone there for 2 years  ( I think they were sick of me and ready to get rid of me). I left recovered from an eating disorder, though the word “social anxiety” was hanging over my head. Now, I fully believe I am severely struggling with this and I feel so helpless because I have no therapist to discuss this with. school is really difficult because of this situation. I have left go of many friends, and have no one really I consider a good close friend. so my family is left to deal with. by family I mean my older sister, who I consider to one of my friends, though because we are sisters we do clash and we are completely opposite. I feel as though everyone in my life always disappoints me. maybe I am the problem because the people that disappoint me manage to have good friends, and get along with others, so maybe its me? I do not get along with anyone in my life, and I know its because of my anger. though, something makes me believe that its not complete anger. its like I try and give 100%, but something does not work, because I do not end up having long relationship with the person. this really does not help with my self-esteem, and I really just want someone to talk about, I want like a therapist, but my mum was so disappoint, and scared that I went to therapy that I'm scared to tell her I want to go again..m

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