maria

My name is Maria Izabela (but I prefer "Izabella" with two LL), My nicknames are "Mah," "Mari," "Bella," and "Bellinha." I'm 16 years old, I was born on March 9th (2010) and my sign is Pisces... Soooo... I'm sensitive, haha.

My sexuality is confusing—like, i'm bisexual but it's complicated... there isn't really a label for me. My pronouns are she/her.

𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿𝘀:

Back during the pandemic (COVID-19), I was obsessed with Michael Jackson. I don't know why... when I was really, really little, I was scared of him—scared of the famous "Thriller" music video—and my mom used to tease me about it. I used to listen to his music in secret; I was a huge fan and had tons of photos and videos of him saved on my phone... there's so much to tell, lol. I've been a fan of Lisa Marie Presley since 2021/2022, but I don't listen to her music as much anymore because of some traumatic things that happened in 2023. It wasn't because of her death, but other stuff, and that's why... I can't really bring myself to connect with her work as much anymore. But her songs are amazing!!! She was incredible.

I’ve been a fan of Boy George since 2023. At first, I listened to some songs by his band—which is amazing, by the way—but later on, I started listening to his solo tracks. Songs like the wonderful "Sold," "Everything I Own," and "The Crying Game." I started listening to his rock album last year—I think it was in September... I was shocked when I found out he had a rock album (it's called "Cheapness and Beauty"; it's from 1995). It seemed a bit odd at first, but I grew to love it... that era is my favorite! Lol! There’s another solo song of his that I really love, too.

I’ve been a fan of Nirvana and Courtney Love since 2024. I don’t know Nirvana’s full history, but I got interested in Kurt—though I don’t really know anything about him yet. I think I cared about—or identified with—his pain. I think that was it. He was a broken angel. I love him. And as for Courtney... I really loved her famous album, "Live Through This", and then I started loving "Pretty On The Inside" —another really great album! She’s incredible, too... I became interested in her pain and her flaws as well... I think I like people like that because it makes me feel less alone.

Hmm... Slipknot too, but I've only listened to that 1999 album of theirs. And I love Molchat Doma—specifically their album "Monument" (2020).

I don't know anything about those two bands, just like I don't really know the full stories behind Kurt and Courtney, Hole, and Nirvana. This is so confused.

Lately, I’ve been listening to Janet Jackson—specifically her incredible album "The Velvet Rope". It’s not that my musical taste is still being built or rebuilt; I’ve listened to famous songs and chart-toppers just like everyone else. I’d like to have more artists or bands on my playlist, but I’m dealing with an addiction—one that’s completely consumed my brain—and it’s only made me lose interest in everything else. I’m extremely hard to please when it comes to music. A recent miracle, though, was that I suddenly took a liking to Seal’s "Kiss From A Rose"—maybe because of its melancholic vibe. I loved it. It’s strange, but it feels like a miracle.

And I forgot about her: Madonna. I’ve loved her since September of last year... I’ve even felt angry with her—though perhaps I didn't fully understand things back then. I believed lies; I admit it. I look at her with sensitivity and admiration. She is incredible. I love her.

𝗺𝘆 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘆 : Confused. Literally that. Depersonalized. Stupid... there must be something odd going on in my brain. Since I was little, I never really understood things, no matter how hard I tried. I fall into the category of "people who just learned to read and write, and that’s enough." I’m sensitive... because of my zodiac sign. I get angry and irritable sometimes. I’m not religious or anything, but I do believe God—or the universe—exists.

𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 : Raven (from Teen Titans), Dora the Explorer, Jennifer Check (from Jennifer's Body).

That’s it: it’s a confusing, ridiculous text—explained but twisted—just like me. Kisses! 💜