heya everyone! so 2025 is off to a... pretty decent start? 2024 ended, obviously, not great (scully passed dec. 1st, the ele.ction, money troubles, etc.), but things are okay right now. spouse finished grad school and got a slight bump in pay, our mortgage went down a little bit?? (i didn't know it could do that... thought it would stay the same or only get higher lol so that was a nice surprise). our 4 remaining cats are wonderful and i'm glad we have them in our life, tho i do dread the day when they pass (we have a 12y/o, an 11y/o, a 5y/o, and a 3y/o)... but we'll get through that like we did with scully.
aside from the sadder things, i made a lot of personal improvements with my mental health in 2024. started therapy (yay me) and had an immediate connection with my therapist. started reading a SHIT ton (haven't read for fun since 11th grade bc it just became a chore/work at that point for school projects and shit), esp smut lol, and that moved me to the next HUGE personal step: i joined the kink community. WITH FULL SUPPORT FROM MY SPOUSE, i want to make that very clear. i do not do a thing without first telling my spouse (by choice), and they're so very supportive of and excited for me. i've got three play partners currently, in a dynamic with one of them, and i'm having a good time. sex used to be scary to me, but it's more normalized now which i never thought would be the case. it's helped my spouse and i, as well, and i'm so grateful for it. my therapist also happens to be a sex therapist, so she's been very encouraging and helpful through all of this, too. communication is the biggest thing when it comes to kink, both with your play partner(s) and any other partners you may have, and i'm lucky my spouse and i already had really clear communication channels beforehand.
that's not to say it isn't a challenge, as my spouse is NOT in the kink community and is still working through some religious trauma and how it's hurt their views on sex, so we have lots of conversations about how we're feeling, if anything is bothering us, or if we want something to change a bit compared to what's been happening. my intentions in being in kink are to learn more about myself and to accept more things about myself (my body, for one), and to make some friends i normally wouldn't! i am married to my partner, and i'm not interested in further romantic relationships; just friendships! enm (ethical non-monogamy) is essentially what i'm practicing, but i know i won't be in kink forever... just for a little while so that i can learn as much as possible and enjoy myself (tmi maybe but i don't personally get a lot of physical pleasure from sex -- ever. solo stuff? for sure. i've got toys for that lol. but partnered sex? i enjoy it most when my play partner / partner is enjoying themselves. sex is weird, and i am so fuckin asexual).
a lot of other shit happened, but those are the most noteworthy things lol. i stopped writing on elizabeth / tum.blr in general, but i do plan on coming back. i miss writing, and i miss interacting with people. i know a lot of people aren't on much anymore, but that's okay! i'm here to write and enjoy interactions, and maybe to make friends as a bonus! i'm always here, even if i'm not actively posting, so please don't hesitate to message me; i'll always answer.
