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ok in case you missed it, I posted the first three chapters of Julian Files. (This is a book set in the past in ICoS, when Boyd was a kid. It followed Julian Jones, a Private Investigator in Lexington, and his friend Cedrick Beaulieu, as well as baby Boyd and Vivienne. Plus others.

Some of you may have already read the first and third chapter but the second is new, which is why I posted 3 chaps this time. I’ll continue posting a chapter or two every third Saturday of the month going forward until I run out of what I have written so far. The book isn’t finished so at some point I’m going to have to stop before the story is over. Sorry! It’s why I hadn’t been sharing it previously but eh, it’s not like I’ve been finishing it so far anyway so maybe it’s better this way.

btw sorry if the book sucks. I haven’t had any betas or editing help on it and it’s in super draft mode. Feel free to let me know if things seem cheesy or shitty going forward; it’ll help me edit :)

HERE ARE THE CHAPTERS RELEASED SO FAR:

One, Thursday May 12, 2005 - tumblr, my blog

Two, Friday May 13, 2005 - tumblr, my blog

Three, Friday June 24, 2005 - tumblr, my blog

Original art by czx

Sometimes I suspect we are all horrible people. Or at least, we are human people. Same thing. We are impatient, judgmental, irritating and irritated, grumpy, easily offended and the rest of it.

So how to be kinder if it doesn’t come naturally? 

Fake it. 

Fake it a little bit at a time. 

Because there isn’t actually any difference between doing something nice for someone because you are naturally saintly and perfect, and doing something nice for someone because you are secretly demonic and trying to cover it up. It’s still an act of kindness either way, and you still made their lives better.

Smile at people. Say hullo. Ask about their lives. Remember what they’ve told you about their lives. Do small things to try and help them. (They will not know you are horrible, do not worry. They will just perceive that you are helping.)

Give people the benefit of the doubt. Remember that it’s more often stupidity to blame than evil, that everyone can screw up (including you) and what’s important is learning from that.

Think “What would an actually kind person do now?” – and do that. Don’t beat yourself up when you fail. Just be as kind to yourself as you will be to others – even if you have to fake that.