alhamdulillah ala kulli hal ☯︎

Happy Father’s Day, Ayah.

sem 3 almost come to an end, i had no idea how fast time passed. Foundation life definitely taught so many things, its like a new beginning to adulthood and i am so not ready for kuliyyah and what the future holds. Im scared but also eager, Im happy but also worry. Lets just enjoy these remaining days having fun esp with my smap gang and do my best for final. hwaiting hudaa!!!

"How do you explain the feeling of longing for something or someone, even though you've never been to that place or met them? Because that's exactly how I'm feeling right now."

hye there, its the second day of sem 2 in cfs and i got no class today. not here to talk abt cfs tho but to rent on how fun my sem break was. First of all and most of all, alhamdulillah we are blessed with baby nuha sofea, my new niece. Its been a wonderful time taking care of nuha and my sister. I love cooking and baking for them except that kak wawa cant eat most of the food I cooked as she was still in pantang.(It was the foods i crave along the way hihu). I also got the chance to make my own wingstop as I crave it so much back then and u know what, the tase is incredibly super duper good. I also made pizza, shepherd pie, brookies cupcake, apam pisang, cheesecake, steamboat and many many more. Its kinda tiring not getting out from the house and like taking care of them most of the time, but act I dont do much tho compared to my mom. I cant even imagine just how tiring it must be (esp when im back here in cfs, she got no assistance anymore). Oh, other than cooking, the most enjoyable thing during the break was reading novel!!! I have reread the bumi series again as I want to remember the full story line before reading ily. And guess what, now I cant seem to move on or stop thinking abt them that it drives me crazy. I cant wait till next year for the new book urghh. and so u know what, i bought harry potter series to cover the feeling of longing towards bumi series lol. hmm. I miss being home, i love being at home, not meeting people and no one bothers me in message. I love spending time with my family even if it means just sitting in the same room with them. bcs home is wherever they are-

First of all and most of all, the moment i spent with my homie(hs fwends) were dear to me and thats what makes my life in foundation filled with colours. From going to masjid together to morning walk every weekend and went to pasar rabu tgt. Sometimes I feel like its selfish of me to spent most of my time with my hs friends and not making lots of core memory with new friends. But in uni, no one cares about you, and no one can understand better the attachment issues we had towards each other, its insurmountable . I never thought there would be any hs that hv the same kind of friendship as we do. I may not say it much and shows no emotion at all but I do feel sad thinking Ill be left all alone in kuantan soon. People may not see it but it is harder for me to move on as I dont quite express my feeling so it all goes bottom down and deep, couldnt fine its way exit. (maybe thats how i manage to hv the same crush for 4-5 years... not once but twice dammit)