dont care

I know… I really don’t know what to tell you…

Let's just.. change the topic.

Hey, hey, hey, calm down Brittie, okay? I did offer to tag along, but I don’t know if he’ll let me, okay? I know how you feel, he was like a second father to me, he always took care of me when I was in New York, even when Dylan wasn’t with me… it’s hard.

God, this is so.. just, unexpected.

I know princess… I was there with him.

He can't go back to New York by himself, Tyler.. Maybe, you should go with him! Or we could ask his girlfriend to go? He can't do that alone, I won't let him go by himself. I mean being with family is one thing but it's a feeling of comfort when your friends try to be there for you, right? Right? Jesus, I'm talking a million miles per minute which doesn't even make sense but.. I just, I feel like I lost my dad because really he was the closest thing I ever had to a dad. Okay I need to stop talking.

Yeah Britt, my dad. He’s, he’s gone.

What inevitable is that? Oh…you mean running into your ex.

I mean, we've already talked.. Just the fact actually maybe seeing him around with his new, perfect little girlfriend, or even better, seeing them on his bed in my room.

Okay, okay, no, no, no, no, come here, Brittie, come here.

His dad.. He..

Oh um…three months ago he died..

He.. Your dad..?

Well, that’s just not good. You should talk it out, yeah, but never forget. Because repressing memories and feelings is always bad. No one can make you forget, Brittie, because memories are the best thing we can treasure.

I guess you're right Tyler..

I’m happy to be going home for Christmas, then again it’s really bittersweet. 

Why's it going to be bittersweet..?

I know. So embarracing, even for me. Well… I can’t say much about it, because my ex is not exactly here and not living in the same room as me, but I guess what you need is some space. Not that you’ll get any from sharing rooms. I can try keep Dylan busy most time. Besides, there’s always places we could go so you won’t have to see him during the day.

Yeah but then at the same time I want to talk it out with him, and we tried. We said we'd start over but now thinking about it, I don't want to forget all the memories we've shared and all the feelings that come with it... I just..

I think it is, I just told Adelaide to give me my chewing toy back… I don’t know, maybe I’m just transforming. Yay! You made me a happy Tyler now! Whoo! Oh Brittie… I know and it’s harder because you’re his roommate, isn’t it?

Oh jeez, Tyler. Better put the claws away. Yeah, everything is harder by being here in general. I mean- i don't care about... dating him, anymore. That ship has sailed and is probably never coming back, but, he was my bestfriend. Beside you, of course. I dunno what to do.