mercury in furs

It's 4.30 am now and I cannot sleep because when I try I get seizures and severe sleep paralysis and I'm thinking of how much drugs I take all the time just because right medication is banned in russia. When I use amphetamine it makes me calm and concentrated and I sleep well, other substances I use just because the reality is too ridiculous. I'm using H for a week almost because it also makes me sleep good, but it's almost over and I don't have a chance to buy more.

now I'm officially having narcolepsy and there is no real treatment in this country

finishing making 2 music videos for some local rappers, taking way too much drugs, dying from the heat, starting harm reduction telegram channel, trying to start making music

i hope the end of the world is around the corner