“My” Ministry - Part Three
A few weeks ago, I began a series called “My” ministry. I recommend you start with Part 1- as this is a continuation of previous thoughts….
I explained in Part Two that while God had given me a destination to go regarding His plans for my future, I was guilty of running out ahead of Him and trying to do it on my own. Not intentionally, mind you. Most of our departures aren’t intentional. I saw myself as a “good soldier” marching to the orders God had given me. My own experience with failure has shown me that we cannot sustain success for God’s plans without Him. This week I had a very shocking (and painful) realization of another reason this is a catastrophically bad idea.
When you walk the path to your destiny alone, doing it out of your own strength and will-power, the attacks of the enemy and the temptations from Satan are so much louder and more powerful because you’re not walking with Jesus at your side. I hope somehow my words are able to scare the absolute mess right out of you! It’s the equivalent of rushing head long into a battle without your armor. It’s the equivalent of rushing into a battle without knowing the commands and objectives of your superior officers. It means your unprepared for what you will face on the journey. If you do not heed my words, you will be wounded, badly. And those wounds will come from battles that the Lord didn’t even call you to fight.
What if the Israelites had just abandoned God’s presence after crossing the Red Sea?
“I got this now God, thanks!”
What if they had deserted God in the desert and walked toward the Promised Land all alone? Really consider that for a minute. Would they have gotten very far? Let’s face it, it would have been a disaster! They were only a few weeks in and ran out of water. Then they ran out of food. When they did get there, they freaked out and said, “There are giants in the land!” We miss the point that God was keeping them that dependent on Him for a reason. They would have been sitting ducks for the enemy if they had wandered around in their own strength with their own objectives. That’s what I did and when I failed I could see it was because I did it on my own. Now I also see that the abuse I took at the hands of Satan was also because of my wanderings. I opened myself up to attack and didn’t even know it. I’m just now seeing how vulnerable my rebellion made me.
God’s path rarely looks like the right one. Looking at a map, we see God took the Israelites around the long way to the Red Sea. He knew if they went the short way they would encounter an army and they weren’t prepared to handle it. I don’t mean just physically, but mentally and emotionally. We know they weren’t prepared because they panicked when Pharaoh’s army finally chased them down. They literally wanted to surrender and blamed God for letting them be corned for a slaughter. That’s my main point here. Sometimes God gives us a destination or a direction to march toward. Somewhere along the way we take a side road that looks really good, like it’s going to get us there faster. We don’t realize we left the Lord’s presence until we’re under attack and failing.
“What happened, we cry? Where did you go, God?”
He answers, “You left my side a long while ago!”
We too easily forget that God wants to get us there. And when he lingers at spots we wish He wouldn’t, when He takes the long way, when He lets the journey look the exact opposite of what we were promised….it would be completely foolish to go our own way. Not JUST because you will fail, but also because we open ourselves up for such a horrible onslaught when we go it alone.
This very recent realization had me in a fit of hysterical laughter as I contemplated how badly I was wounded by the arrows of the enemy the last time I walked toward the goal God has set before me. It was truly an absurdity. A hysterical absurdity! And then I wept until I could barely breathe. The anguish in my soul for my foolishness wrecked me. I never did understand why the journey had been so hard. Why I had been so miserable. But by leaving Wisdom, by leaving the presence of My Helper, I had put myself in a situation that was open to spiritual attack. It was open season on Leah. Oh, the longsuffering of our God!
Satan doesn’t want you to realize your full potential in Christ. We’d all be so much more dangerous if we were walking in our destiny. The enemy is going to put stumbling blocks in your path, regardless of whether we’re on the right path. Think back on the enemies who attacked Israel as they made their journey toward their Promised Land. The right path still had them encountering battles. If we are going to encounter trial- and we are - then here’s the question we have to ask ourselves. Can we fight those battles alone? Do you even want to? How many more unnecessary battles are you willing to fight just to do it your own way? How many extra wounds do you want? Much of the trouble I’ve endured I made for myself! How humbling! Getting the direction is the easy part. Staying completely dependent upon the Lord and never leaving his presence- that’s the hard part! We’re not so lucky to get a cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night! I think that’s what the journey is really about; to teach us to abide in His presence. In doing so we come to understand His ways and are made more aware of His love for us. I am changed into His likeness, which I will need when I finally arrive.
This reminds me of something I recently heard Lance Wallnau say. He was explaining that mastery is forged in the process; in the transition between getting the destination and arriving at it. He gave the example of people who try to lose weight. One person eats healthy and goes to the gym because they must. All the while, they hate it. We’ve all been there! Another person does the same things but comes to love the process. They eat healthy because of how it makes them feel. They work out because they love the energy it gives them. The first person is probably going to fail before they reach their goal or gain it all back once they have. They despise the process and only did it to reach a goal. They hung on as long as they could- but no one’s will power is a bottomless well. The second person will get healthy and stay healthy. Let us not despise, then, the journey! It may be in the desert, and it may even take us 40 years! But that is far better than running off ahead and doing it our own way. Trust me!












