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I really adore my partner. It feels very peaceful to finally experience this. Who would’ve known. I’m really grateful for love and caring. I love humans!

I hate how angry I’ve become. I’ve dreamt about him 2 nights straight now, I don’t want to sleep because of it. And I already can’t lay down to go to sleep without flashbacks of it happening. I hate that I randomly remember the taste of him and the feeling of his body weight on me impossible to get off. And I hate that the girl I considered my friend is siding with him, all because she’s dating his best friend. I would’ve never done that to her. I hate how distrusting I’ve become. And I really hate that I ever trusted her. And I hate that it doesn’t feel valid to me and that I blame myself but I don’t know what else to do. The police who took my report twisted my words, and I have no one else to go to. I suppose that’s why i’m now venting on tumblr lmfao. It really never does get better L O L