Passion for Fashion and Style

So how did you feel?

Huh?

At that exact moment what were you experiencing?

Mmmph…Feeling? Experiencing? Me? Nothing.

All I can remember is a void, an emptiness that I just wanted to fill…at all costs

I felt nothing…I was nothing

But why? You have everything, why on earth would you of all people be driven to do that?

I couldn’t help it

I wasn’t in control

I…

On most days I succeed

I have no trouble whatsoever forcefully pushing any thoughts of you into the deepest drains of my poor heart

But sometimes it’s a song

Especially the one you used to listen to while you danced so freely and so lightly

It was like watching a feather blow away just as the dandelions in spring

You release them but as they scatter so effortlessly, deep down…

How can you lose something when it never belonged to you in the first place?

How does your heart break when it was never whole from the beginning?

How do you say goodbye to the love of your life when they never showed you any love?

You replay your last conversation over and over and over again, analysing each and every bit better than a literature grad student

You think of…

If I have a daughter I will name her after my mother-in-law

A petite woman who welcomed me into her world arms open even though we didn’t speak the same language

A strong woman who didn’t mind when his only son brought a Kenyan home, a Kenyan that knew nothing of their customs but a Kenyan she has viciously fought for and shows off to all her friends and even passers by

If I have a…

She sat there looking at the people running around the small picturesque village living their lives like hamsters on a never-ending wheel

She studied them carefully for a while like lab rats meant to cure cancer, trying to understand them, trying to figure out the miniature webs that held them together

Wondering if sometimes they felt lost as she did or if not, if they had discovered the…

What makes one love story different from another? How does one know when they find ‘the one’? How does one distinguish between being in love with someone with being in love with the idea of that someone? How can you tell if it’s true love? What the heck is true love anyway and is there such thing as ‘the one’?  Sadly if you are struggling with these questions, I can’t be of any help as I am not…

MI CORAZON

Putting words on paper

Has always been second nature

But with you and a future

So strong, true not obscure

To lose is despair.

  I want to profess

You and I, perfect mess

You treat me like a princess

But expect less

And for that I obsess.

  I am but a plain Jane

With a heart tearstained

But with every beat

To you to be true

Never to make you blue.

  In your arms, I am safe

In your…