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I shouldn’t have to raise a partner, I shouldn’t have to be the only one who feeds, cleans, and caters to the other.

It’s hard to leave my dogs. I know no one will care for them like I do, have, and will..

When they are gone I want to be gone.

& then getting negative energy, grunts and sighs, over tasks I have to do EVERY DAY anyway.

Don’t try and say you’re trying to be supportive by giving me resentful energy for tasks that should be shared with people who live together.

You’re tired of being asked (not expected) to help once? Imagine how tired I am.

The more my life is held over my head and I am forced to feel grateful for it

She would look for me

Cry for me

They would miss me. This is why I stay

I’m losing every battle

The closer to 30 , then more I understand my original plan

Yeah, because I learned early I can’t depend on you. Even as a child, I am in debt to you because you CHOSE to keep me?

I shouldn’t have to refrain from boundaries because you were obligated to feed, clothe, and shelter me until 18. Even then, you made me pay my way and earn my keep.

While others lounge around lazily taking advantage of you, only for you to express and exude your frustrations back onto me.

You can’t just use me forever. You can’t just use my life as a way to weaponize your desires and needs.

Having to correct myself, having to change myself, yet having to thinking for more than myself

I try to change and try to improve

I can’t be every resolution when I am somehow the reason for every problem

I’m trying and trying

If I don’t say anything or do anything then I’m either a nag or an enabler