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I am I afraid to say how I truly feel? Am I too stubborn and sweep it under the rug?

When will it be too late to say anything I feel when i don't have the courage to do so?

Why don't I? Here is the question I need to answer for myself.

My soul feels at ease.

I can trust him with my life.

Oh My, my, my... Oh how I am so lucky.

With my relationships, friendships, colleagues, and accuatances.

Being the person who always helps, goes above and beyond.

What is it really for? Gratification of being a better person?

Worse.

In fear of losing people and not feeling competent.

Not being caring.

If I tend to go above and beyond with the small things like rice,

This is the reason why.

That is what I always wanted.

Here it is. New love, New family, New happiness.

I am happy.

Too happy? Or afraid to let myself be truly me.

I am pictured to always be the way I am. Anything else is me "not being myself"

This is me!

I can be defensive, lash out of frustration.

No, that's not you.

You can't act that way. Or when I do, I feel so guilty and want to apologize.

For what?

I just want all of me to be here.

Safe to be okay with not being okay.

Not feeling ashamed to feel this way.