Me

But I want you to know

I'm a dick, I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care

When you don't think about me

Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy

But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that

I'm addicted to you

But I want it and I need it

I'm addicted to you

Now it's over, can't forget what you said

And I never, want to do this again

Heartbreaker!

Since the day I met you

And after all we've been through…

Still a dick, I'm addicted to you

I think you know that it's true

I'd run a thousand miles to get you

Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy

I did all that I could

Just to keep you

But you left anyway…

I'm trying to forget that

I'm addicted to you

But I want it and I need it

I'm addicted to you

Now it's over, can't forget what you said

And I never, want to do this again

Heartbreaker!

How long will I be waiting?

Until the end of time

I don't know why I'm still waiting

I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that

I'm addicted to you

But I want it and I need it

I'm addicted to you

You get mad at me for the smallest things, you get mad at me for something going wrong in your day, you get mad at me for something someone else did.

But when I try to express my feelings, they always get ignored. It always turns into your feelings. You didn’t like how I said something , do didn’t like the words I used to express my self. But what does that do? It deters from having to communicate about my feelings. Then you toss me to the curb. Stone wall me, so that I can never get answers when it comes to my emotions. Then I spiral, and you say “see you have a problem” that’s messed up. I treat you damn good!!! But you say that I don’t because I have episodes because you literally ignore belittle and completed neglect discussing how I feel and how “we can work together” to fix it.

I showed you proof of exactly what I’ve been complaining about and yet you still can’t admit to any wrong doing. You always have an excuse, you always have a way to weasel your way out of feeling guilty of anything you do. I’m always the one apologizing, even when I’m the one that brings up something that hurts me. I’m always the one having to prove myself to you. Yet I’m the narcissist. I’m the one that thinks so highly of myself.

All you had to do was recognize my feelings, apologize and try.

Yet that’s too much for you.

Your abusive nature is smack dab in your face and yet you still can’t own up to it and try to remedy it.

Im there helping you in every way possible yet you keep bringing up the same thing you helped me with, and act like I wasn’t there finding each message and emailing it. The amount of times you ask me for a favor in a week, yet you don’t recognize it. You don’t appreciate it.

Restrained✅

Snowed by hospital ✅

Stripped naked ✅

Stomach pumped ✅

Feelings recognized ❌

Feeling heard❌

Feeling important ❌

Feeling like silenced ✅